Jamie's Diary

28.4.17

You're sitting on a camping chair with your phone in your hands and huddled together cause you were cold but didn't want anyone to know. The Garage echoing with unfamiliar music and smelling of alcohol and nicotine. One person leaves so you disconnect their phone from the speaker and play your music. You play "riot" and everyone cheers. Not cause they know or like the song, but cause they think it's better then the one that was playing. Oh well. You sit back down. You're in control of the music, listening to what you like. Perfect. You don't mind the smell of cigarettes, it's just when EVERYONE is smoking, that's the problem. Kids are still awake, adults are playing darts. You go to pick up your drink but accidentally pick up a beer bottle. Huh, I wish. You put it back down and grab your actual drink. That taste, these smells, this music. Everything in this moment is great. People ask you to get them drinks. You give it to them. People ask to play a certain song. You play the song. Everyone is happy. Everyone is having fun. You go over to the smokers and take a deep breath. It's doesn't make me cough anymore? Oh well. You go back into the garage and look at the table. Take in every single detail. Why? You gotta. Okay. The pale chip crums show up alot of the black table cloth. Opened and unfinished chip packs everywhere. Grapes and cheese scatter the table. Empty and half empty bottles of wine and beer in random places. It's like a frat party, but it's not. This is fun. One song comes on. Nine In The Afternoon. You sing quietly. Everyone is too drunk to remember you sing anyway. And your eyes are the size of the moon. I miss her. No. Don't. Happy. That's right. But she makes me happy. Yes, but she's not here. I wish she was. Why? So you can kiss her? No, so I can show her the stars and fail at darts with her. So I sing horribly and she won't care.... The song changes again and some people start dancing. Oh god. You laugh at some of the drunk dances. People start playing darts and you have a go. You miss. You miss again. You get a three!! You get a Two!! You get a one!! Too bad that you have to get them in the opposite order to be able to play. You smile. That was fun.