Love Is Not Perfect (CTBL Book2)

Chapter 5 - Hurt

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Napasandal ako sa pintuan ng makapasok sa sarili kung condo. My heartbeats beating faster and I'm breathing deeply. Habol hiningang sumandal ako sa pintuan. Damn, I relax myself and went to the fridge. I pick the water bottle inside and drink the whole water. I put my right hand to my chest and breath, once again.

Nang umupo ako sa sofa ay may biglang kumatok. I panicked.

Paano ko ba siya kakausapin? Titingnan? Nahihiya na tuloy ako. Yan ang nasa utak ko ngayon.

I opened the door with a nervous in my face. But I never expected to see him standing infront of me. Hindi ko inaasahan ang pagdating niya dito. I didn't invite him to come over on my condo. I gave him a small smile and asked why he's here all of a sudden.

"What brought you here? You didn't tell me you visit me right now?" I asked but I cannot hide the truth that I'm feeling nervous to see him.

What if... he saw me kissing Kean? Oh my god! I hope he didn't. I pray silently. Wag ma paranoid, Chandellyzah! Hindi niya yun nakita.

"I just..." I cut his words and open the door widely para makapasok siya.

"Pasok ka muna."

"Wala ka bang ginagawa?" I asked habang tinungo ang thermos para magtimpla ng choco coffee.

"Wala eh, I just missing you that's why I got my feet here."

"Aysus. Napakadrama mo, hindi pa naman days ang nakalipas simula nung nagkita tayo." Sabay ngisi sa kanya at pumunta sa pwesto niya dala ang choco coffee na timpla ko.

"Heto, you're favorite." I gave the cup of choco coffee and sit the other side of the couch.

"Thank you. Alam mo talaga yung favorite ko ah." He teasing me using his smile. Mga ngiting hindi peke, mga ngiting nagmamahal lang.

Alam kung masasaktan ko itong lalaki na 'to sa bandang huli.

Pero paano ko ba sasabihin sa kanya na kay Kean pa ang puso ko hanggang ngayon?

Naiisip ko palang na umamin sa kanya at masaktan ko siya, nasasaktan rin ako. Mahal ko siya pero mas mahal ko si Kean at hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang sabihin.

"Chandellyzah." nagbalik ang sense ko nang tinawag niya ang pangalan ko. Oh, sorry. Damn, I overthink while he's here infront of me.

"I'm sorry. What is it?" I awkwardly smile at him at nagpeace sign dahilan sa pagpula ng kanyang pisngi.

"You're not listening to me. Are you okay?" He looked worried while asking me but I gave him a okay sign just assured him that I'm really okay. Even though it's not because I'm guilty. I feel sorry to myself because right now, I can't tell him the exact words.

Tumango-tango siya habang nakangiti na parang bata. He's really cute and yet handsome not like Kean, he is handsome yet manly looking.

Ihahalintulad ko talaga? Tsk.

"Are you free tomorrow?" He asked when he done sipping his choco coffee.

"I don't know. I can't directly decide bacause I have to go to my parent tomorrow." I answered.

Hours passed and he decided to go home now. This room full of laughter and happiness but I cannot focus because of my thoughts. My questions and how to say this properly.

"Til next time, thank you. I enjoy a lot right now. I have to go." He kissed my forehead and smiled at me

"Ingat ka sa pag-uwi." Ngumiti rin ako sa kanya at itinaas ang kanang kamay para magpaalam na rin.

Vyrone's POV

I know and I saw everything. I know everything what is all about, I saw everything they do. But I remained silent because I love her. I love her that much that I couldn't react about what I see. Pero hanggang kailan naman ito?

I turn my back to go home because my head fucks up. I'm hurt, but who is Vyrone in her life? Just a suitor but not her boyfriend, not her life. She can decide right now, right there if she want, but what if she decide that time, what if she decide to choose either it's me or that man.

Naiisip ko palang nasasaktan na ako, so I pretend everything. I pretend that I don't know. Mahal ko siya, pero hindi ko alam kung saan patungo ang lahat. I know from the start that it's not me, it will never be me. But I forced myself, just to love me back.

I jumped of the car and start the engine. Minutes passed, I already home. I rent an apartment near her condo, that's why I can directly visit her but that's what I saw. But everything is fine with me, I love her. I love her that much. It's really hurt, that's what I feel right now.

I open one can of beer at isang lagok ko lang. Maybe I'm just chilling, but deep down inside, I'm so broke inside. Seeing her kissing other man ay nasasaktan na ako. Pero wala akong magagawa kasi ayaw kong magalit siya sa akin. Ayaw kong ayawn na niya ako. Ayokong mawala siya s akin. I hated all of that.

I stood up when I heard my phone ringing. Not a call, but a message. The name show up, it's my lovely girl. I smiled bitterly and ignore it.

Chandellyzah's POV

I thanked Vyrone, again through text.

"Ingat sa pagdrive, Vy. Thank you for today." :)

Putting smiley emoticon of my text makes me smile because thinking Vyrone's smile was very priceless. Pag kasi nakita niyang may nakalagay na stickers or emoticons sa text at reply ko ay magtatalon talaga yun sa kilig. Hindi ko nga lang alam kung bakit ganyan yun umasta but he's so damn cute. I admired him a lot.

I send the message and waited for a minute to see his reply pero wala akong natanggap at nabasa. I type another text of for my parents na pupunta ako sa kanila.

"Ma, pa, dadalaw ako bukas sa inyo. Lunch and dinner po tayo together."

Natapos ang isang oras, no Vyrone's message appeared in my phone. Is he okay? Ngayon lang ito hindi nagrereply. Tss.

I'm about to put my phone in the sofa when it's ringing. Unknown caller, sino naman kaya 'to? Because I'm not interested at wala akong gana sumagot sa sino mang tumawag ngayon ay hinayaan ko nalang. Kung sino man ang tumawag ngayon, bahala ka d'yan. Kakain muna ako.