Love Is Not Perfect (CTBL Book2)

Chapter 13 - I'm okay

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I already here in the place that we can talk personally. I'm waiting for him to come but minutes passed yung presensya man lang niya hindi ko nararamdaman. He's avoiding me for almost a week. I texted him last day to meet me up at this place at inaasahan ko na pupunta siya pero parang ayaw niya talagang makipagkita sa akin o makita man lang ako.

Thirty minutes na akong naghihintay sa kanya. He's always punctual and early bird but now, tskkk.

I know it's my fault. Starting from the start, I know that It's my fault. Hindi ko na sana siya pinayagan kung alam ko lang ang kalabasan. Akala ko kasi wala na eh, pero heto, may nasasaktan akong tao.

I didn't meant to hurt him. Kung alam niya lang na nasasaktan rin ako sa mga pangyayari ngayon.

"Hey," umangat ang sulok ng labi ko as I hear his voice and seeing him standing infront of me. But my smile suddenly fade when I saw his face.

"Hi, ah... Akala ko hindi kana darating." I manage to talk and avoid awkwardness pero hindi maiwasan.

Since the day he knows that Kean and I are back together. I didn't see him around. Ngayon nalang ulit ko siyang nakita at parang may nagbago sa kanya.

"What do you want to talk about?" He is now sitting infront of me while putting his back on the chair's body.

His bubbly and soft voice are gone. I feel something cold on how he stared at me and talked to me. I found myself looking at my hands holding a cup of hot coffee. My heart shattered seeing him like this. I don't like seeing him like this, talking me like this and stared at me like this.

"If you have nothing to discuss with, well, maybe It's time to go? I have something to do." Before he walked away, I grab his T-shirt— the lower part of it. I can't take a look direct on his eyes. Nasasaktan ako. He turned his head down to looked at me.

"What?" Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na nakahawak sa laylayan ng kanyang damit. Dahan-dahan niya itong tinanggal at umupo ulit.

"Okay, I'm sorry." Panimula ko. Wala parin itong expression sa akin. Pero nakatutok ang mga mata niya sa akin.

Parang wala siyang ganang makinig o hindi siya interesado.

"Vyrone, I know I give you false hope and I know It's my fault that I give you that. I'm really sorry." I said my sincerity to him but he stared at me blankly.

"It's okay, It's my fault, too that I give my heart to you even though I know you're still inlove with him. You don't have to be sorry." He smiled a little bit and back to a blank stare.

Sa kanyang mga mata na nakatitig sa akin alam kong tinatago niya lang na nasasaktan siya. Dahil ayaw niya rin akong masaktan pero the way he acted right now, I'm already hurt.

"I'm sorry, Vy. But I'm thankful too, that you are by my side when no one else. Thank you for loving me and I treasure you. But I can't give you the same. Mahal kita pero mas mahal ko talaga siya eh, I'm sorry!" Parang pinipiga yung puso ko ng sinabi ko ang mga ito sa kanya. Alam ko na mahal ko siya pero bilang kaibigan at kapatid lang ang maibigay ko pero as a man, I can't give him that.

Because I love Kean since the day I met him.

"I like— No, I love you. Since the day I met you. I know that I fall for you. It's okay that you can't love me in return. Wala akong magagawa kong mahal mo talaga siya. I'm just a suitor who courting you to be mine. I'm just loving you." He said frankly and his voice cracked as he say the last words. I found myself crying too.