My Sweet Carolina-Harry Styles Fanfiction

Chapter 7- The Letter

I was so tired that I ended up sleeping for 3 hours instead of having a quick nap. It was one of those naps where it seems like you've been sleeping forever. So you just jump up thinking it's the next day but it's really just a few hours later. Yea that's the worst.

I sat in bed for a few minutes after waking up and start to think about the letter for Justin. How would he react? I mean obviously he's going to be pissed off..but what will he do out of anger? That's what always scared me about him, it wasn't the fact that he would get mad but what he would do when he's mad. 

Thinking about it for too long is just going to work me up and eventually lead me to putting it off. But the more I wait the angrier he will get, especially since I lied to him when I left. If there was one thing that I learned after being in a relationship with Justin it was that he hated being lied to. No relationship should be based off of lies so I can understand that I am the same way. It was against my better judgement but I had to lie to him that day if I wanted to leave.

When I finally get out of bed I start searching around my place to find a piece of paper and something to write with. I search the entire place but all I find is a pen, no paper. Of course just my luck.. Where can I get paper without actually going out ? I am too tired and lazy to go out to try and find some paper.

Alexis. I can ask Alexis. I walk out of my room and down the stairs like I had done earlier when leaving for work. When I get down there I start to get nervous because I don't see her. 

I decide on waiting around for a few minutes to see if she shows up, she might be in the bathroom or something. 

It feels like I have been standing here forever but when I look over at the clock that was on the wall above her desk I see that it's only been 5 minutes. I was going to stay longer but it felt very weird to just stand around down here, I could just come back later.

Just as I was going to head back up stairs Alexis emerges through the entrance of the building. "Hey, I was just grabbing some dinner. I'm so sorry if I kept you waiting." 

"It's okay don't worry about it. I was just wondering if you had some paper I could use." She puts her finger up in the air, indicating that she has something and to hold on. I stand there patiently waiting for her to come out from behind her desk. "I actually have an extra notebook that you can have. There was a sale at a store downtown."

"Thank you so much. I know it's a strange request but I just felt like doing some writing I guess." She laughs. "Please there have been very strange requests here and that is not one. I get it. I'm inspired to write at times as well." She hands me the notebook with a smile. "Thank you again." 

"No problem. As always if you need anything else don't be afraid to ask." I laugh "I won't. Have a good night." As I walk away she gives me a wave good bye. "You too." 

Well I sure am glad that she had a whole notebook, you know just in case I make a mistake, which happens quite frequently. Once I enter my apartment I lock the door behind me and head over to my bedroom, grabbing the pen I found a little earlier and plop myself on my bed. 

Ugh..What to write, what to write. I stare at the paper for what seems like forever. Come on Chloe it's not that difficult just explain what you did and are doing without actually telling him what you specifically are doing....Yea that's harder than I thought.

After another 5 minutes fly by I finally hover my pen over the paper as a thought pops into my mind.

Justin,

I know you are probably extremely upset with me for not returning when I had said the other night.. but I had to do it. Every day that you saw me, something bad always happened. Whether it be arguing or hitting... most of the time it was hitting. A part of me told myself to get over it and that you would soon stop and realize it was wrong. So there was nothing to worry about. But nothing stopped. You went out every night getting drunk and then came back to me and always did things that I'll never forget but that at some point I wish you will regret. It wasn't until the night before that I realized I needed to leave, everything had built up and overwhelmed me to the point where I didn't know who I was anymore. I feel like even after what you put me through you deserve to know why I did what I did. I've gone away for a while to try and figure things out for myself and find the true me. I'm sure it's hard for you to understand right now but hopefully one day you will get it. I hope for nothing but the best for you.

Chloe

I read over the letter for what seems like a hundred times and I finally decide that it is okay to send. Why do I always have to procrastinate over everything? 

I turn on my phone to see that it is almost 9:00. Maybe I should actually mail it out in the morning, it's too late to do it now and besides I need to get some more sleep because I am exhausted. Just 1 day of work and I am already too tired to go back. 

This is what adult hood is like, I remind myself over and over. In order to survive and get things that you want you need money. 

Don't get me wrong I love where I am right now. It's a small place, not too busy, and the couple of people that work there are so kind. The standing on my feet and mental math all day is what tires me out, but like Sherry said I will get used to it after a while.

I put the letter on my bedside table so that way I can remember to grab it in the morning and plug my phone in. All I want to do is fall face first onto my bed and sleep but I know that if I don't wash my face and get all of this makeup off, my face will be like sandpaper in the morning.

 I walk over to the bathroom and wash my face. Before going to bed I also change into the t-shirt I had slept in last night because I was too lazy to find another one in my bag that I still haven't unpacked...Which I really should get to at some point to make things around here a little easier.

Finally I jump into bed and snuggle up to my pillow which is super comfortable and start to doze off. I just hope that tomorrow is easier and doesn't make me so tired, I have a lot to do in the morning.

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