My Best Friend Is My Lover (Ongoing) -Namjin

Part 7

It's later in the night and Namjoon and Jin had decided to lay on Namjoons bed and spoon a bit, nothing out of the ordinary. Every once in a while Namjoon would grab Jin's ass, which also wasn't out of the ordinary, but Jin wasn't really in the mood to do anything like that so Namjoon left his ass alone after a while. Though Namjoon could tell that he had hit a rough spot when he asked why Jin and Taehyung had broken up, and he felt kinda bad about it, but still really wanted to know what had gotten Jin so choked up about it. He always knew Jin had anxiety problems, but for him to just talk about something and to get that choked up about it really worried him.
"Hey.... you know you don't have to tell me why you and that guy had broken up if you don't want to." Namjoon said
"No no, it's okay, you have a right to know. Also I should have told you in the beginning." Jin said with the best smile he could muster.
"Are you sure? Cause you seemed to get really choked up about it and-"
"Namjoon. Shut up I want to tell you and i'm going to tell you. Shit i'll tell you right now if you want me to. You have a right to know and I should have told you in the beginning." Jin said a bit annoyed but was kind of happy that Namjoon was so worried about him. Though he always did that.
"Well.... if it's okay with you... could you please tell me?"
Jin sighed and took in a deep breath, preparing himself, he didn't want to break down in front of Namjoon. That was the last thing he wanted to do.
"Okay... so me and him broke up for 3 main reasons" Jin said this staring Namjoon straight into his eyes and trying to stay as calm as possible, Namjoons caring and small eyes helped calm him. So he started again.
"The first reason is because he was verbally abusive. He would scream at me calling me ugly and stupid and would always tell me I wouldn't get any where in life. He would say things about how he was the only one that loved me. The main reason I believed him was because I knew my parents didn't love me, and I thought no one else did."
As he said that Namjoons eyes went from curious to sad, and angry.
"Baby... please don't look at me like that... it was 2 years ago i'm over it." Jin said with the biggest smile he could muster. Namjoons face softened, and reached out his hands for Jin to hold on to, which he did, and Jin started to explain again while Namjoon played with Jin's fingers.
"The second reason is because he was... physically abusive. He would slap me, kick me, punch me, and a few times he would cut me." Jin started shaking, his eyes slowly turning red from trying his hardest not to cry. Namjoon looked like he wanted to cry, he put down his head and started to shake, trying his hardest not to break down crying either, his grip tightening on Jin's hands.
"And the third reason was because he would force me to do things I didn't want to......" Jin trailed off. Namjoon lifted his head. His eyes bloodshot, Namjoon had managed to keep himself from breaking down the whole time, but both of them knew that if Jin finished that sentence both of them would start crying.
"Baby... you d-dont ha-have to f-f-finish that s-sentence, I-I und-derstand."
"Namjoon... thank you for always caring about me.. and genuinely loving me." As Jin said this a tear streamed down his left cheek, and after that tear came another on his other cheek, then causing an enormous amount of tears to start falling.
"And for saving me..." Jin said this quietly, not really wanting for Namjoon to hear, but he heard it. Those words had caused Namjoon to start crying along with Jin.
"B-baby... what d-do you m-mean I s-s-saved you?" At this point Namjoon was shaking, tears were rapidly streaming down his face, and his face full of sadness and confusion. Jin keeps his head down, not wanting to look Namjoon in the eyes as he said what he was about to say.
"Remember when we first met?"