Ephemeral >> Viktuuri

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A/n this pic made me laugh

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Viktor Nikiforov

The next day, Yurio did in fact come to the rink to hang out with Yuuri and i. It was honestly nice because he distracted me from being all sad about my feelings and how Yuuri doesnt reciprocate those feelings, and doesnt remember me. I could see it hurt Yurio a little bit to see Yuuri didnt remember him either; Yurio was just a baby before Yuuri lost his memory but i'm sure if he didnt lose his memory, he would remember Yurio.

"Here, if you need help landing a jump i can help if you want.", Yuuri offers Yurio while they talk about a bunch of stuff i didnt hear and stuff i did hear which was just about skating. I wonder what those two are keeping from me... but, it was funny to see Yuuri's reaction to be like 'oh my gosh its Yurio nikiforov', and Yurio just acting like he usually does with his fans and shit. Yurio is actually protective of his fans even though a lot of them annoy him a lot, its still cute. Yuuri does the jump and lands it perfectly, then smiling at Yurio and encouraging him to try to do the jump.

Yurio does the stance to where he's about to jump, but hes just standing so Yuuri can tell him what hes doing wrong and how what should be what. Like, his left leg should be twirrled arou d his right in the middle of the air and then as he spins the last spin, he lifts his left leg and sticks it out to make sure he lands the jump perfectly without touching down on the ice or falling or tripping or whatever. Yuuri claps and giggles, "That was great, Yurio!", he smiles at my little brother and it makes my heart warm at the memories of how he used to do that when Yurio was just a baby and Yuuri would always say how cute he looked and how he looked just like our mom. Yuuri suddenly seems to black out for a minute because he stares at the wall and doesnt move, until a minute later he moves and looks in shock before looking at his surroundings then looking at Yurio.

What just happened?

Yuuri hugs Yurio and giggles, making me and him confused. "Yurio, you're older than i remember! I just remembered seeing you as a baby! How cute!", he lets go of Yurio and my eyes brim with tears at the sight. So he remembers my baby brother but not me?! I quickly grab my bag before angrily opening the front doors to the rink, then slamming them open and shut before storming off to some unknown location with my eyes wet from crying.

I spot a park and sit down on a bench nearby, with my knees to my chest and my face in my hands while i cry. I cant believe Yuuri doesnt remember me but he remembers my baby brother who he only saw a couple of times, a few in our moms stomach, and a few as a baby when he was old enough to finally open his eyes and stuff. You have go to be fucking kidding me! I look up at the sky, noticing the dark clouds, then looking around me and seeing a few pebbles with a little lake nearby. I walk over to the lake, then picking up a rock and examining for a bit before angrily chucking it into the lake with a groan as i start to cry again, then falling my knees and staring into my ugly reflection in the lake. hating my reflection. hating myself. Hating life. Hating my looks. hating how everything turned out. Hating myself for letting Yuuri skate that day when he obviously had something on his mind so he fell and lost his memory.... I feel like this is all my fault....