Colour | Jungkook √

twenty eight

YOONRA

"...." I turned and looked at the person infront of me. He is holding a phone, and its screen displayed my live video.

What the heck is happening?

It can't be him right? But CookieJ asked me to look behind. I did, and only revealing this person I hated the most, yet loved the most.

"Shocked?" He spoke in the dark, his back facing the light source, causing me to have trouble watching his face. But still, I could identify him in just a second.

"W-What?" My tone soften and I went one step backward. Yes, you're right, I was not shocked, I was very shocked.

He scoffed, "you've never change, still that dumb as usual."

There was still loads of questions floating around me and I seriously have to calm myself. I took a deep breath and was about to ask...

"Oh? Let me introduce myself. I'm Jeon Jungkook, has a youtube account and it's called CookieJ. Nice to meet you, Cha Yoonra, or in other way....Yoonraday," he said and giving me a slight bow.

Without thinking further, I turned off the live and ended the video. My eyes still locking at the person infront of me, somehow I felt scared, insecure.

He shover his hands to the pocket, facing me but I couldn't see his face, and couldn't even see through how he feel or what is he going do say in a psychological way.

I gulped, "CookieJ...? Is that really you?"

"Of course. It's surprising right?" He chuckled in satisfaction.

"N-No, not at all," I said insolently, "it sounds really childish, no offense." 

Well, no offense but that's exactly what I meant.

"Hey! That name has deep meaning---"

"How deep?" I blurted out, but it sounded so....wrong.

"CookieJ, 'cookie' for my nickname Kookie, and 'J' for the initial or my name," he explained to me.

"Ah....." I elongated, "still sucks though. You should at least named it with something related to you. For example, which celebrities do you like and which animals and plants do you like the most?"

"I like Justin Bieber. So do I named myself..."

I waited for him to reply, wishing for a good answer. I don't know why I'm treating him so good. I should be hating him, and ignored him.

"....Justin Seagull."

I choked. I seriously choked on my own saliva. I coughed multiple times and starting to worry this boy's future.

"What the fish is going on in your mind? Seagull? Whaa--t?" I whisper-shouted, so that the neighbours wouldn't get disturbed.

"Uhhh....nevermind, forget about it," he shrugged and ruffled his hair.

Silence completly engulfed the atmostphere as the frogs and insects stop making noises, even Jungkook and I as well.

Suddenly I have the urge to hug him, hold his hands or so. I really wanted to do that, I wish I could be stronger and braver, to just simply approach him and do it. But there was a tiny little feeling that supressed the urge, which made me questioned about myself : what actually brought us till here.

Fate?

I could say I don't believe such things like zodiac signs or horoscopes, so how can I believe in fate? He is going to marry, to a pretty girl who looks perfectly beside him. He even kissed that person, having those physical contacts among themselves which I never get to try before.

No, you can't, he hurts you, remember?

I bit my lower lip, foughting the urge for not repeating the same mistake ever again.

Well, I think I should go now. Eventhough running away isn't my type of settling things but only this time, only today, I would choose to leave.

Accumulating my courage, I took a step forward and brushed past him...

Suddenly he grabbed my wrist, forcing me to stop. His grip was a bit too harsh and I felt pain as if his great force had blocked my veins.

"Wha-Let go, please," I said while the other hand attempted to get rid of his huge hand on mine. But I failed, of course.

"Do you plan to leave just like that, huh?" He scoffed.

"So? I can't stand to breathe in the same air with you anymore," I looked on the bumpy road but not looking into his eyes.

Now that we had moved and the street lights finally reached on him, that was why I couldn't look into him, because I knew I will fall.

"Do you still have feelings for me?"

He asked, all of the sudden, that made my eyes widen.

"What?" I pretended not to hear well.

"I know you heard it. It's freaking quiet here," he said, knowing that I could never lie because it was lame, "answer me, do you still like me?"

"What if I said no? What if I said yes? Does it make any changes?" My voice soften.

Little did I knew it actually has a hint of jealousy in my words. It was glad that Jungkook didn't find out about that.

"If the answer's yes, I will---"

Not letting him finish his sentence, I barged in, "you will cancel the wedding ceremony and tell the whole world that you don't like Eunji? Is that what you're going to say?"

He was still shocked and I took the chance and went on, "and do you think I will go with you? Date you and marry you? Stop all the shits you're always having fun of me--"

Before I could finish talking, something blocked my vision and soon a soft, warm lip was banging against my lips.

He grabbed both of my arms, expecting that I might be running away. I opened my eyes in shock, only found that he was closing his eyes, enjoying the kiss.

My thoughts were all crumpled up together. All I could feel was the beating of my heart, as well as his. He....He must be really nervous as well.

Wait, he's Eunji's.

I gathered my energy and pushed him away. He pulled back a few steps due to the unstable body. I pursed my lips and began to speak, although I hate saying this....

"Stop kissing me with lips that had been kissed by someone else's before," I frowned.

I like it. But I can't. So I refused.

"Wait, what," he proceeded, "I never kiss someone else before. This is my first kiss, and I gave it to you..."

"You kissed Eunji didn't you? The week before I went to Japan, at a restaurant....My naked eyes seen everything," I said clutching my hand.

"No, I didn't! You must be mistaken us kissing together. I swear I didn't kiss her before. Trust me," he said confidently.

I kept shaking my head, not really know whether I was denying his statement or couldn't believe what i just heard.

I took a deep breath and said calmly, "okay, whatever, I've got to go..."

With that I left but he called my name and my actions came to a halt.

"Yoonra..." he paused,

"....don't forget to come to the wedding ceremony."

Thank you Jungkook, for making me completly broken because of you.