Colour | Jungkook √

seventeen

YOONRA

I am loving alone, hurting alone. For the first time I started to ignore this feelings of him but eventually I gave in. I really love him. And I finally admitted it.

Never in my life did I ever thought of him would secretly crushing on Eunji. Or to be exact, they are both in love with each other. Perfect match and I'm the third wheel, ruined it just like the parallel lines which would never meet together.

I felt bad. I should have just gave up. I should just leave them alone and let the love birds stay together. For once I really had a idiotic thought of him liking me, even just a little. But no, reality doesn't give a shit to this. I guessed I'm imagining that this love was reciprocated, just like the dramas.

It took time for me to forget about him. Not just few weeks, maybe up to 1 year. Inexperience in love like me, absolutely torturing and making myself suffer when it comes to love. So this is an experience and more over a lesson, right?

Well, maybe he is not my destiny. Maybe he is not my future. Maybe he is not the other part of my life. Who knows?

It's time to wake up from your dream, Yoonra.

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"Are you sure this is the best for you?" Mum questioned again.

I hesitated for two seconds and nodded, "yes, I've made the decision, don't worry."

Although I asked her not to be worry but actually I'm getting worried of myself as well. Going to the other country for a couple of years, who doesn't get nervous about that?

"But, you know it's dangerous outside and you're all alone. I'm worried about you, dear. And I just wants the best for you---" she walked closer and held my hands.

"Yeah, I know, Mum," I went on, "I got deeply hurt by something and it had left a scar on it. I couldn't stay here, facing that person again. I think I would just collapse one day," I placed my hands on the luggage that I just finished packing.

"But dear, mind telling me who is that person and what did the person had done to you?" She was willing to know, at least, to open up my heart.

"I'm sorry....I---"

"It's fine. Don't say if you aren't going to tell me the whole thing. I respect your decision. I love you, Yoonra..." She sobbed, trying to hide it.

"T-Thanks, you're the best mother I've ever seen," I went to her embrace and both of us hugging tightly, probably our last hug.

I tried my best, not to burst out of tears. Pursing my lips, I closed my eyes and enjoyed this wonderful hug. I could feel my left shoulder was soaking......yes, she was crying.

Pulling apart from the hug, my fingers running around her cheeks and wiped off the tears.

"Oh ya, Mum, can I go out right now to meet a friend. Just a simple goodbye and I will be back," I asked.

"Sure, why not?" She forced out a smile.

My gaze landed on the clock. 10pm. Still not too late. Quickly I grabbed my phone along with me and ran to meet her.

Finally, she showed up infront of me. She was panting and tried to catch her breathe.

"W-hat...is it....for c-calling me out that late?" She asked, tilting her head.

"I'm going to Japan tomorrow," I proceeded, "...most probably for like one or two years."

Her jaw dropped, eyebrow formed and arch. She mouthed 'whaa--t' and still couldn't believe my words.

"Don't lie okay? Today isn't April's Fool, no serious jokes are allowed," she chuckled.

"No, I'm not joking, Eunji. It's real, I'm going tomorrow and I'm just gonna say goodbye to you and that's all," I smiled.

"What? Why? It's so sudden..." she grasped my arms.

"It's nothing I just wanna go there to spend my future. You know, Seoul is always the same and I wanted to discover the other world," I lied, to conceal the fact that I was avoiding Jungkook.

"Really? But promise me you must come back once a few months. I really will be missing you..." she then extended her arm and surrounded me.

"I miss you too," then I went on, "goodbye..."

"Goodbye," the atmostphere got emotional suddenly when

You guys would be together happily after I left. You guys would no longer getting annoyed by the unnecessary me. I know it's hard to spit this out but I think I should: hope you guys live happily ever after.

Well, as long as Jungkook is happy, I could risk anything. I'm not stupid but I'm dumb. I have no regrets.

"Oh ya, Eunji," I spoke.

"Hmm?"

Finding so hard to say it out, I took a deep breathe and squeezed the word out....

".....don't tell Jungkook about this."

[A/N] i'm sorry because this chap is a bit short and boring._.