Colour | Jungkook √

nineteen

JUNGKOOK

The harsh sunlight striked through the window of my room. My eyelids attacked by the ray and began to wake up.

"Shit."

I cursed as being late. I quickly jumped from my bed and went to my desk without taking a bathe. I opened my laptop and carassed the mouse.

She uploaded already. 45 minutes ago. This was the second time I've been late for her update. Immediately, I clicked the video and watch her vlog.

"Hello everyone, my name is Yoonra. And today I'm at the Hiroshima. I once promised you guys I will be visiting here and yes, I fulfilled my promise. So I'm going to take a look at the....."

There was it, the signature intro of her every single video. It always starts like that.

I stared at the screen, barely blinked my eyes as if I would miss any important parts. The back of my neck was drenching with sweat and my body felt sticky due to the morning sun. Even so, I still put her as my first priority.

It happened to be one day, when I was searching random stuffs to consume the time, I found her channel and her vlogs. Since then I watched her videos 24/7.

It has been three years, or more than that I supposed. She left without telling me or leaving any simple note. I managed to get to know this from Eunji, just when she tried to hide the secret of her leaving. And yes, I went to the airport, scanning around the gates and tried to look for her. But she was nowhere to be seen.

I had been wondering the reason of searching for her desirely and even stayed up for watching her vlogs. I chuckled at my own silly actions. Sometimes I would question back myself about why would you be telling me your leaving and all the stuffs? We are separated, for such long time, yet I still think about you.

I'm missing you.

".....let's try it tomorrow. And thank you guys so much for watching till the end of this video. I guess I end it here. Hope you have a great day, bye."

She said it with a wide grin, which was enough to make my day. Before closing the device, I commented for her video.

CookieJ :
A new update yay! I'm sorry I'm not the earliest one for your video:'(

After that, I shut close my laptop and began to bath.

I went downstairs, finding my mother flipping through a magazine while crossing her legs. I lowkey rolled my eyes and walked...

"Stop right there," she placed the magazine on top of the coffee table.

I turned and faced her reluctantly, waiting for her to speak.

"Where are you going? Aren't you suppose to tell me?" She said with her bitchy voice.

"You aren't my mother," I went on, "you have no right to know."

She slapped the couch and stood angrily, "be careful with your words. You are in this house but I'm the head of this house, not you."

Her tone suddenly got softer, trying to be as hypocritical as she could. But that was such a nausea to me.

"Trying to make me your 'son' huh?" I scoffed, " is it because you can't produce a son?" 

She made me said that, not my fault.

"You--"

"Bye," I said as I went out the house without closing the door.

I frowned and stopped right at the gate of my house. I am still getting control by her, somehow. It's because I'm too weak, I couldn't even make a decision for myself. I was getting control because of this woman. Why did Dad even married her?

I acted strong infront of her. In fact, I'm truly fearing of her, wondering what she would be doing next to threaten me.

--

The shot glasses collided with each other and created a tinkling sound. The golden liquid then drank by both of us. I held my breath and finished all of it in one shot.

"More?" Jimin asked.

"Sure," I nodded. We were now sitting on the high stools infront of the bar. Two bartenders were busying making wines and cocktails. Females were mostly got attracted by that since they could drink the custom made bervages from the bartenders with sleeveless tops, which showed their lumps of muscles.

Jimin poured the beer to my shot glass, he later on got some for himself too.

"Cheers," both of us said in sync.

"What brought you here?" Jimin broke the wall of silence and the conversation started.

"I hate my life, it has no meaning at all," I said while glancing at the surface of the beer.

"Why? Because if that, again?" Jimin looked like he had been seeing through me.

I threw him a confused look and he proceeded, "Yoonra. It's her again, am I wrong?"

Well, he finally guessed something right. I scoffed and said, "what about no?"

He looked up and revealed my smirking face. "Hey, don't lie."

I ignored him because I didn't know what to say at the moment.

"I-I didn't..." I said, filling up his shot glass once again and pushed it to his front. "Drink it."

He still suspecting me and scanning me again and again, causing me to get twitchy. I avoided the eye contact and began to look around. Speaking of which, there were not many people around, perhaps it was midnight already?

Suddenly, Jimin slapped the top of my head and I flinched. I threw him a 'what the hell' face.

"Don't hit that part if you're shorter than me. Know your limits,' I said, teasing him.

He then smiled in awkwardness and got over. I really like how he could be positive and face everything even if it was in the worst state. He just smiles and shrugged off as if it was nothing. His smile was ordinary, yet contagious.

"Hey...don't be like this," he paused, "I've been wondering why you're still missing her? I mean, you guys had just met for three months or so, and you guys don't even meet each other everyday. It doesn't make sense."

"I don't know, I kinda messed up this. I don't understand what's going on in my mind. I don't even know myself."

Sometimes, Jimin could be the best listener out of my friends, not even my parents could help me.

"Eunji? What about her? Don't tell me you didn't realise that she likes you since a freaking century ago," he exaggerated.

"Yeah I know---"

"Why is she better than Eunji? Eunji is pretty, kind, nice... she has mostly everything, nearly perfect! I don't really get it why you choose Yoonra though," he pouted.

"Well, you might don't know about this but Eunji is just my childhood bestfriend and nothing else. Nobody can replace Yoonra.... " I went on while smiling instinctively.

"....because she is unique." 

[A/N] jikook shipper xD