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gender dysphoria

So, if you did not know, my biological sex does not match up with my gender. When it does, this is called being cisgender, and I'm sure that all of you reading this have met a cisgender person. There is also the term gender fluid, agender, you could be a demiboy or demigirl, or you could be transgender-like me.

I'm not going to complain about people getting my pronouns wrong or people 'assuming my gender', because it's honestly s confusing thing and I still have some weary branches on its large tree. I'm here to talk about my dysphoria.

Dysphoria is a real mental issue, and I deal with it everyday. When I first discovered the term transgender it probably started clicking, but I didn't realize. I wish I did, because lately it's been getting really bad, to the point where I'll wake up in the morning and hate myself. Throughout some days, I'll literally think about suicide. Just this week, I came home and stood in my kitchen, looking at all of my options.

I think that the hardest part of having gender dysphoria is that for most of us with any ties to the LGBTQ+ community, we have unsupportive parents. I haven't said anything on here, but I asked my mom what she would do if I was transgender, and she literally said she would disown me. I can't make it on my own- I have nowhere to go. None of my other family members would take me in, none that I would be okay with, because they're all the same way, and I can only imagine the bullying I would get at school, so I probably wouldn't even try for an education. Well, I deffinetly want one, but I don't think I'd be able to handle the people.

So, I'm basically in stealth. Stealth is when somebody doesn't know about you being a homosexual, transgender, or other, and I'm in stealth with everybody outside of Wattpad and friends.

I don't know. This isn't really a rant, just... something I needed to get out there.

I'm no professional on this kind of stuff, but if anybody out there ever needs help, my DM is always open to visitors, you don't even have to introduce yourself :)

Also I turn 14 tomorrow