There's SOME Art In Here

I am so

Uncomfortable.

I just tried to use some of the drawing apps on my iPad and I opened up the safari thingy and oh my Jesus

My brother mainly uses the iPad. I'm the oldest, there's a four year and 1 day gap between us, some of you should know-no, majority of you should know-how old I am, so yea. He isn't even a teen yet.

Whenever a female starts taking T and transitioning to male, the 3 most prominent changes that take place are:

How quickly they get angry
How hungry they get
And their libido level

Not that big of a deal. I don't really care. I understand that there are things specific to both sexes. Does it make a difference? No. I said I don't care.

Except when they affect my household.

There were about 15-20 tabs open on it. Two of them were innocent Google tabs.

Literally everyone one other than those two had something lude on them. Majority were open to pornhub.

I didn't look, I didn't let them load completely, but as I was closing them one of the titles caught my eye??

'My sister loves me...'

Oh my Jesus

This is deffinetly rushing my plans for coming out. I'll probably come out within a year now. Partially because highschool and me finally going into it and partially because now I'm afraid of my brother

I guess I shouldn't worry about it, he's really young still, but it's still kinda scary

It couldn't have been my dad because he's respectable when it comes to that, plus my brother started freaking out as soon as I touched our I pad

If anything does happen I will not hesitate to call the police. One of my friends who is an actual rape victim was raped by her brother and didn't call the police but I honestly don't care. I'm selfish, I can be taken as cocky (though I assure you, I'm just being sarcastic), but I'm self aware. I am way more important to myself than anybody in this household.

I haven't done anything like he is doing now ever before, because the thought of sex with a female doesn't particularly strike an interest in me

Uhhhghh my head is swimming and my stomach is being flipped over

I hate my family. I'm always so afraid to live in this household. My parents like to complain about me staying in my bedroom the whole day but it's where I feel the safest.

I'm am so afraid, you guys.

I'm so afraid I can't tell my parents about it

My parents know I know because they had me take the sex ed class at our school, but how would they respond if their youngest child who has hardly hot double digits knows, and then they discover his kinks are for his sister?

That's disgusting!

I'm so afraid, uncomfortable

I have to spend the rest of the summer with him and only him.

;-; kill me
I'm positive it'll be a lot more fun to not exist than to go through this hell