Instantly Falling For You l.s

Chapter 78

Harry's P.O.V

"Louis lay here" I whispered putting him onto his bed. He said his parents weren't home because they had to help this dad move out and it felt wrong to be here.

"I'm so tired" Louis whined making me roll my eyes. This was a bad idea all this was, I was suppose to be mad at Louis for what he has do but I somehow ended up in his room. I understand it's been like two months since we've talked but I still cant get over the fact that he used me.

"Whats wrong?" Louis sat up from his bed and I quickly nodded my head.

"Oh...uh nothing" I quickly answered. I've stopped putting gel on my hair and I stopped wearing my glasses out in public. I still wear the same old nerdy clothes that everyone calls them.

"What's going through your mind?" Louis grabbed my arm and I pulled it away from his grip. Louis looked hurt but I didn't care.

"Louis if you're gonna want to be how we use to be and by that I mean friends, we should take things slow other than that please stay away from me" Louis got up from his bed and let out a fake laugh along with a huff.

"Don't pull that shit on me Harry, whats the real reason you want me to stay away from you. It's been two fucking months I understand you're still pissed but fuck Harry! It irritates me how you ignore me how you push me away!" Louis started raising his voice and this time I wasn't scared how I use to be. I stayed silent I didn't speak I didn't know what to say.

"You're scared to fall in love with me, that's why you want me to stay away from you. That's why you push me away so much. Unless its real hatred towards me." Louis whispered the last sentence, I knew I shouldn't have came. I should've known how this was gonna end.

"I have to go" I whispered, I grabbed my sweater from the bed but Louis was to quick and grabbed my arm. He didn't hesitate on putting his lips onto mine, I let out a surprise sound catching me off guard. At first I was pushing him and hitting his chest with my weak arm but I somehow started to move my lips along with his. The kiss was slow and nice, there was no tongue just lips intertwined together.

"Fuck, I've missed this so bad" Louis said between the kiss. He lightly pushed me against his wall and I groaned at the friction that he was creating. That's when we had sex in the car, I didn't throw the condom away, I showed it to Zayn and Jake I felt guilty when I did.

"Louis, please stop" I pulled him away from me making him tumble backwards. He looked paled.

"Shit, I'm sorry if I forced you. Fuck I'm such an idiot" Louis sat onto his bed harshly making me flinch. I'm not gonna lie I've noticed how much weight Louis has lost. He looks very pale, his cheeks bones pop out way more than the usual. His eyes are swollen just like as if he hasn't got any sleep.

"No its uh okay, you didn't force me into anything. I have to go Louis I'm sorry" I walked towards his door and grabbed the door knob.

"Can we please just start talking? I wanna become friends again" Louis said. He sounds hurt my chest starts to ache and I start nodding.

"Yeah, yeah I'll see you tomorrow" I opened his room door and got out rushing out his house. I started to feel weak and I felt the urge to cry and just rip my hear off. Why did we have to kiss!? We shouldn't have kissed! That wasn't supposed to happen! I ran my shakey hand through my hair as I was cursing under my breath. I missed that feeling when our lips touched, I missed the way he comforted me, I missed how he smelled from up close. I miss everything about him. I started to make my way to my house letting out a big sigh, Louis Tomlinson will be the end of me, literally.

Louis' P.O.V

"Louis mate! You left the party early yesterday" Luke greeted me by shaking my hand.