cancer - joshler

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tyler was scared of his own image.

the way he was starting to look due to his cancer,

wasn't what tyler wanted to look like.

he would wake up,

look in the mirror,

and jump slightly.

surely other people had to see

how he was he wasn't looking healthy anymore.

but if they noticed they never said anything.

josh sure didn't.

god,

he was so worried for tyler!

but he didn't want to ask.

he thought maybe it was just something like a cold.

but a cold that lasts a month?

oh how naive of josh.

he should've asked more.

maybe tyler would've told him.

tyler was laying on his back,

with josh at his side.

he was looking up at the ceiling

as he rubbed josh's back.

he was scared of his own ceiling.

he needed air.

he needed to get out of this house.

he needed to be outside.

he didn't like being in closed rooms.

especially now with his cancer.

he felt even more trapped when he was in a room.

the cancer and the ceiling were what scared him.

tyler looked over at josh and smiled,

but tyler was still uncertain if he should tell josh.

he didn't know what would be better.

tyler was scared he'd die of uncertainty.

uncertainty if it would be a good idea to tell josh.

what if it was better for him to tell josh,

but what if,

it was better not to tell josh.

tyler couldn't go through this alone!

he needed josh to be by his side.

as selfish as it sounded.