(The Virtuous Husband) In the name of Love

Chapter 11

Allison

My mind was in the fucking haze. I didn't know what to do or where I was going. I was fucking lost. I looked at my own deshellved reflection in the elevator. My head ached too badly beside the pain I felt in my heart. I had pushed the button like a maniac because I needed to be away from him or any memory of him. I can't believe I had fucked him. Every time my eyes met the deformed me I hated myself. I wanted to burn every inch of me that he had touched. Hatred pours out of every pore of my skin. How could I have not seen what he was fucking thinking?

"What a fool I'm" I sobbed out in the lift. Wiping away the tears I tried to look decent but every fucking moment I looked at myself fresh tears escaped my eyes. What had happened to me? How could he have done this to me? How? How could I have let this happen to myself? I didn't deserve this. I didn't in any fucking condition. I met that man only once. Never before. I was no fucking rat. All I was helping my fucking boss and that is how I was repaid. What had I done to deserve it? I was battered feeling like a beaten dog.  as the doors opened I walked out of the building without fucking looking anywhere or at anyone. I needed to get out of there it was so fucking hard to even breathe fucking in here. Everything reminded me of him. I wanted to wipe him out of my life for well and for good. Hell with my job, I would kill him if I even saw him again or had a glimpse of him.

 I inhaled the fresh air in huge gulps as soon as I was out. I didn't look back and walked far away from the streets with no idea when the hell I was going. I just didn't care. I needed to forget about what he did to me, who he was. Wipe out his name from my life. Tears never stopped. They never did. I had never been so humiliated ever in my life. How could he just sleep this with me just for the sake of some fucking revenge, to teach my a lesson? He was a fucking monster. He deluded me into thinking that he was liking me. He made a fool of me in my eyes. When the hell did I became so easy, let him inside me? How could I have not seen the devil behind those eyes? 

You are just a class A hooker

His voice echoed in my mind.

"Allison," I could hear someone call me but Noel's word drowns me in pain that nothing mattered to me. 

You are one of the biggest slut in the world who goes around enjoying men and kissing them.

I was none of those things. I was just a girl who was doing her work. I was bold but not a slut, not a hooker. I cried silently. It hurt, it really did. It felt like high school over again. Being bullied and called a slut being a virgin. I had hated that it that time but right now I hated it more than ever. I couldn't fucking take it now. I had been hurt back then, pushed to the edge to take away my life. Why did it feel that the cycle will repeat all over gain? I was not a  hooker. Not a rat. I was loyal. I would never do what he accused me off.

"Allison," a hand on my shoulder snapped me out of misery. As I turned around with my teary hooded eyes I came face to face with the man who had been the key ingredient of what I suffered today. Helloked the same as I had seen the last time.

"Are you all right?" Adam's concerned voice made me cry more. He stepped towards me while I took one back. I didn't know what his and Noel's story was but I shouldn't have been dragged into this. I was no part of it and still had been humiliated in the worst possible way. It fucking hurt thinking that I had let someone fuck me just because he wanted to humiliate me take a revenge. 

"Allison," He called making me look straight in his gray eyes filled with concern and worry. Did he have any idea about what I went through just from one of his act that day? Did he had ever thought about the consequences that I was bound to suffer because of his one act, desire and lust? Was this what he had done to Christine? Her scared face flashed right in front of my eyes and enraged me. He was the root of all our problems. I was mad, sad, in pain and fucking angry at him. Without thinking I slapped him in the middle of the street with too many eyes watching.