Defying Gravity | Dolan Twins

Love & other struggles

1 week later

*Alex's POV*

It's 2 a.m and i'm in Ethan's arms, watching drops of rain fall on the large window while lightnings are currently making their appearance, flashing on our faces as the whole room is lit up.
Although the view is mesmerising and Ethan tries to comfort me, stroking my hair and rubbing my arm, my pulse doesn't seem to slow down and i feel so tensed up, i could burst into tears any minute now.

It's all my mum's fault. She called me to tell me i should come over because she wants to talk to me so i decided i'd go with Ethan. Then she told me that dad left for Australia again and they broke up because she now realised she couldn't forgive him. They had a fight that brought this whole thing up again and again till he packed his things and left. She almost lost the baby because of the fight. I couldn't help but tell her how stupid she's acting, having a baby with the person who was cheating on her for two fucking years.

Wasn't i enough of an experiment for their relationship? Isn't she old enough to understand that love isn't enough sometimes? Isn't she old enough to use a fucking condom?

She was the one who decided to take my lying, cheating dad back not only in her life, but in our home too and now they're broken up again and 4 months pregnant.

The fight got so intense, Ethan had to interfere and drag me out of the house, reminding me that she's in danger of losing the baby. Thank god he was here, for i wouldn't have handled the situation that way. I'm not well known for my patience and Ethan is well aware of that and every single flaw of mine. If he wasn't there, we could have ended up on a situation that could get me traumatized for the rest of my life. I could have killed my sibling.

"Are you alright?" He cups my face, staring at me with concern and i bring my hand above his, circling my thumb on it.

"No but i will be, you don't need to worry"

"I bet you've been thinking about it all day long"

"You'd bet wrong"

"Then what were you thinking of? You know you're tearing up right?" The warmth of his resting hand on my cheek goes away as his thumb wipes away a drop of tears falling from my eye. I take his hand and bring it to my lips, pressing a half-open mouthed kiss on it.

"Right now? I was thinking of how much i love you. I don't know what i'd do without you." i almost freaked out mid-sentence, realising that this is the first time i've ever uttered those words to him since we've gotten together. It just feels so natural to say this to Ethan, it's what i think most of the time when i look at him. I just look at his face and it's love. I kiss him and everything inside me melts, as if the universe thinks that's it for me. It can't get any better.

The most beautiful smile to ever appear on someone's face is right in front of mine. His eyes are glistening, bringing out a familiar light green color scattered all over his hazel eyes as a lightning lights up almost the entire room.

"I've been wanting to tell you since forever but i thought i'd be too soon"

"I know right?" I smile at my own words and the fact that we've gotten to the point where we overanalyse things the same way.

"Your eyes are so goddamn pretty" he talks in a quiet yet deep tone close to my ear.

"So you don't love me back but my eyes are pretty?" I mock him, playing with the soft ends of his hair that choose to curl ever-so slightly.

"I swear that i love you as much as i think that your eyes are from a whole another planet. I'm a sucker for them. Especially when you're caught off guard or act like you're in shock over something, and they get even bigger as you pout...the best thing about it is that i'm usually the one who causes those things and get to see your smile right after and it's probably my favourite thing in the world"