Defying Gravity | Dolan Twins

Losing Control

                 *Alex's POV*

I wake up to the most terrifying day of my life. At least the one i dread the most, the one when i get to find out who my dad really is. But no, he didn't try to tell me the truth. All he did was text me a few days ago to know my grades in finals, my last exams in school ever, telling me we should discuss about my future face to face as we never do that. When he didn't even show up at my graduation.

I am fucking furious over how random he is trying to make this sound.

From when does the person who abandoned me get to care about my future? From when does he have the right to know anything about me, except from my well being?

We haven't talked about the most basic things, he doesn't even know me anymore, and now i guess everything is fine between us since he got me an apartment, right? So it's totally okay for me to fly to Australia to talk to him.

Ridiculous as it may sound, Ethan thinks that this -this foolish type of contact with a person i hate is very necessary.

And although i wanna scream to his face that this whole thing is plain stupid, the truth is that i completely trust him. There must be a good reason behind his saying.

"You are never gonna get over the pain he caused you if you never know his reasons behind all of this" He whispers in my ear lovingly, calm as ever, despite the harshness of words that escaped from my lips a few seconds ago.

And i somehow let him continue talking, never interrupting him.

"Just imagine this. Your little sister being born, growing up asking you what happened between your parents. Don't you wanna be able to give her some answers?"

"Of course i want to but Eth i'm scared" i struggle to put my thoughts into words and his thumb rests on my cheeks as he stares at me, patiently waiting for me to open up. "What if i- what if i hate him even more? What if i end up being more hurt?"

A reassuring smile tugs on his lips, creating a grin "Then you'll know you tried. You'll know, if anything happens to him that you did everything you could have possibly done to give him a chance, and you won't blame yourself"

"I know, i'm just afraid that it'll be just like reopening an old wound"
I stare in his eyes deeply, and i somehow find the tiniest bit of confirmation.

"Baby, this-this is the thing you fear most in this world, right? Once you get over that fear everything else is gonna seem less of a problem, i promise. That wound has always been left open, so you can't reopen it. You'll heal once for all, and do you know what the best part is?"

"What?" My lips curl into a smile as i sense a hint of excitement in his eyes.

"We're flying to Australia together. Our first trip together. My first time on an airplane. I wanna see where you grew up, and hold your hand through this. I know just how hard it is for you, but i'll try to make it as fun as i can"

I nodd my head, my mind being overwhelmed by this feeling of certainty i get around Ethan, before connecting my lips to his. I place my hands on his neck, rubbing all the way up to his jawline as our tongues meet, radiating familiar warmth, and i don't pull back for what feels like eternity. I take my time, feeling his tranquility overflow my mind and it surprises me how this happens every time. How much of an effect he has over my mind and body; i still don't get which one he affects more. All i know is that there probably isn't another human being in the world that could allure the was i see and feel things except him. My Ethan. My own kind of medicine, the one that kicks in the right places at the right time, that controls every dark thought in me and makes life just a little bit better- exactly when my mind refuses to believe it. And i can't deny that it's times like these when i think that people are meant to meet and mold together, because they simple fit better than any puzzle piece does with another. It's times like these when i question if soulmates really exist.