Defying Gravity | Dolan Twins

Letting go

               *Laura's POV*

            Silent agreement.

That's what followed after the last time that we slept on his bed together. We both have agreed about not talking about our feelings, except we never spoke about it. Our communication is only mental, but still it's an understantment.
The rest of the summer passes by and me and Gregg only text each other, for i won't complex my life further more. He hasn't told me that he still has feelings for me although he has been giving me small hints that according to Alex are obvious, and i'm way more than fine with it. If he were to tell me, i would have to break his heart like he broke mine and i wouldn't want that. If he asked me if there is someone else, i would have to lie and not tell him that Grayson consumes every single thought of mine. I'm perfectly fine with having small talks with him whenever we are all hanging out together with Grayson's friends, Alex and Ethan.

As for Grayson, he is well restricted, which i would have never expected of him. Yes, he is still making sexual jokes with me here and there. Every touch between us is still lingering and that one time when he was giving me driving lessons and my hand brushed over his in a gentle move, i could literally see the hair in his arm rise up and sense the change of his breathing pace. I get way too damn jealous of all different kinds of girls sliding in his messages.

That feeling reappears whenever his clubbing habit gets to me and leaves me sleepless, wondering who is with him or how he might be drunk. Grayson senses it, either because i can't help showing my discomfort, or because he has grown to know me more than i ever expected. The crazy thing is that he actually does something about it, and makes those days a rarity, and my heart flutter for him.

Why did he do that? Is making sure that i don't get jealous anywhere near fine for us? What kind of twisted relation is it that we have now?

We are trying more and more to get into the friendly side of whatever it is that we have. All jokes and pranks and laughs untill tears roll off my chin. And smiles, wide smiles... and pulses that quicken, and eyes that glow and heartbeats that won't slow down.

We are both failing, but it's a huge success for me, for us to deprive ourselves of moving on to the next level, considering the effort of not hanging on the best chance you have been given your whole life because you simply can't.

And then there are those thoughts..those dark, vile thoughts i wish i could resist, that turn into wishes and roll down my cheeks for only my pillow to know.

I wish for another, happier ending between us, because i can somehow picture it. I wish i never met Gregg. I wish..i wish Grayson could take the risk of telling Gregg how he feels because he simply couldn't hold it in anymore. I wish that Gregg would have accepted that and even if he stopped talking to me, their friendship wouldn't be ruined.

But those things won't happen for sure, because today marks the last day of Grayson and Alex in New Jersey. They are leaving for L.A tomorrow, taking up acting classes and i'll stay here, miserable and heartbroken.

I won't be thinking of that tonight. It's gonna be a great night. It's Nate's birthday and he is taking us all out, so i wear my prettiest smile and a bare-back white top with my black ripped jeans. Grayson wears a white short sleeved shirt that makes me focus on his lean tan skin, with his dark blue ripped jeans. I go up to him and he kneels for me to fix his hair, a sly smile tugging on his lips before his eyes flutter open and we both break silence at the same time, me asking him what Nate's present is, and him telling me i look incredibly beautiful. Before i get to answer, my cheeks probably burning in bright crimson, his hand gathers all of my hair on my shoulder and chills take over my body as i breath in his scent.