So far away™ (Completed)

Mom

I thank you
And I hate you...
I thank you because
You gave me life
You raised me when he didn't
You loved me like no one did,
And I want to show you how much I love you as much as you love me.
You're so beautiful to me even if you didn't feel like you were,
You tell me I'm beautiful because you know I never thought I was.
I love you......

I hate you because you made me
Honestly it's not your fault, it's me
But I blame you because I am what I am
I'm insecure like you,
I hate myself like you ,
And I want to hurt myself like you..
I hate you because I envy you,
Everyone can love you and everyone can not but you don't care
And I wish I was like that
For me...
People stay and leave,
And I cry.....

But I don't mean I hate you really, I just want to be the best daughter ever but I don't know how and I feel like I'm failing you.....

I need you....

Please help me.....

You're the only one that notice my pain.....

My suffering.....

You're the only one that didn't leave me.....

And I thank you.......

I love you...

But it's too late to say it cause i won't be here to tell you....

And I'm sorry...