Justin Bieber- heartbreaker

Suicide

SIX HOURS AFTER

I woke up to a lot of yelling downstairs I got up and walked downstairs I looked I saw the chef and Nick with guns I saw blood on the ground I took a closer look and saw it was Niall and Justin they were deal I wanted to cry the chef looked up at me and pointed the gun on me "no you've killed them don't kill her!!" Zayn yelled I heard a shot and I woke up I was breathing heavily and sweating I looked around it was only a dream nothing else I'm really scared but I can't go into Niall I got up and walked out my room I walked over to Justin's were they all already sleeping? I walked in he was sleeping so adorable! I walked over to him and laid down I took the blanket over me and took his arm around me he held me tight into him I smiled he let out a soft chuckle "nightmare?" he said and removed my hair from my face I nodded "I've been having them every time I fall asleep" he said and sighed "I'm sorry" I said "don't be I'm taking pills and I'm gonna start going to a therapist" he said "why?" I said "ehm I kind of... freaked out the other night and the guys got me a time every Monday" he said "why did you freak out?" I said "bad dreams a lot of stuff were going on in my mind" he said "oh but the guys won't let me talk to you" I said "I know I can't talk to you either" he said it got quiet I looked up in his eyes he smiled I smiled back he found my hand and held it "goodnight" he said "is it already night?" I said "yeah the guys want me to sleep now so the pills gonna work and I have to wake up early to go and see the therapist" he said "can't you stay?" I said "no I have to" he said "what happened with you and Niall? I heard a lot of yelling you crying and something break?" he said "I don't wanna talk about it" I said "okay" he said "you gonna sleep here tonight?" he said "yeah if I can?" I said "of course you can" he said "I just have to wake up early and I don't wanna wake you" he said "i'll just sleep in my room" I said and got up "no! stay" he said while grabbing my wrist "no you need to sleep" I said "I will just stay" he said "okay" I said and laid back down he pulled me into him "I missed this so freaking much" he said while flipping us over so I was on top his hands were on my hips we smiled to each other he licked his lips I couldn't help but I just had to feel those lips I leaned in our lips were almost touching I could feel his warm breath "i don't know if I should" I whispered "just do it" he whispered Zayn came in "Justin!" He said I got off him and out of the bed "Y/N get out!" Zayn said "don't talk to her like that" Justin said "it's okay I would just have made a mistake if I were here longer" I said "Y/N wait" Justin said and got out of bed I walked out I walked in my room I closet the door that was so close! I could have kissed him! ugh! no I've got Niall remember Niall the guy that loves you I can't cheat on him he's to sweet for that I sighed and got back in bed I looked at the side were Niall usually slept on I got up and walked out the room I walked into Niall's room he wasn't in bed I walked in the bathroom he wasn't there either I started to worry I walked back out I noticed a note on the door I took it and read it oh no I ran out Zayn walked in his room I walked in he looked at me I had tears in my eyes "what's wrong?" he said I handled him the paper "I'm sorry to write this but I left I'm always screwing up things I can't handle the life I think you all gonna have a better life without me and say to Y/N that I love her and she'll find one that's much better and I love you guys but this is the end" he read it out loud and looked up at me he ran out the room "guys!!" he yelled while running downstairs the guys came out from their rooms I followed Zayn "hurry we need to find Niall he's gonna kill himself!!" Zayn yelled while taking his keys he ran out "what!?" Harry said while they all walked down the stairs "Y/N come with us he only wanna listen to you!" Zayn yelled we all ran out to the van we got in "Y/N get in the front" Zayn said I sat down in the front and we drove of "where do you think he is?" Liam said "let's try the beach maybe he's trying to drown himself" Justin said "no Niall won't do that he would do something else" Zayn said "the wood! he wants to hang himself!" Harry said "how do you know that?" I said "he came to me for half an hour ago and asked about all sort of stuff about ropes and how you tie them to a tree" Harry said "hurry the woods" I said we drove to the woods he parked the van we all got out I was so scared I just wanted to cry if I see him hang himself we all walked our way I ran straight I looked around so scared that every time I see something it's Niall hanging I ran more I couldn't feel my legs but I didn't care until I saw one it was Liam he ran over to me "nothing" he said trying to catch his breath "look further" I said and ran past him I looked around it was kind of hard when it was dark my heart was racing I just want to find him and tell him I love him before it's to late! I could see something white it was a white shirt I ran further and saw it was Niall he was hanging up the rope his back was facing me I ran over to him I hugged him from behind "don't do it please!!" I said crying he took his arms down and held my hands he was crying too "don't please" I said he turned around to face me I hugged him he hugged back and buried his face in my neck "Niall!"Liam yelled I heard the guys come running "what were you thinking!?" Zayn said Niall looked up at them "I'm sorry" Niall said "I hope your fine" Liam said and hugged him he got a hug from each one of the guys "I am" Niall said I held his hand he looked down at me and smiled "I can't believe I was almost losing you" I said as we walked towards the van "you won't lose me I promise" he said and gave me a kiss on my head we got in the van "don't scare us like that" Zayn said "in sorry I just had a lot of things going on in my mind" he said "well your going with Justin to the therapist tomorrow" Harry said "what? no I'm fine I don't need that" He said "yes you do suicide thoughts is something you should talk about right away" Louis said (anyone who's having suicide thoughts talk with someone I've been there and it helped me a lot by talking with one) "fine" he said "thanks Nialler" I said and gave him a kiss "I'm really sorry about the things I said when we were fighting" he said "it's okay" I said "can I sleep at you tonight then?" he said "of course you can" I said "good" he said and kissed me we got back to the house we all got out and walked back in the house "I hope I can get some sleep now" Zayn said and walked upstairs the guys followed him Niall lifted me like a bride and walked upstairs I giggled we walked in his room he closet the door with his foot we walked over to his bed he laid me down and took his jacket off he laid down next to me and took his arm around me "I love you" he said "I love you too" I said and held his hand we were spooning "no I really mean it I love you" he said "I know" I said "but I really really mean it I love you and I wanna spend the rest of my life with you" he said "Niall that's so sweet" I said he gave me a kiss on my cheek "and you wanna spend the rest of your life with me too right?" he said "of course I will" I said "but please don't do that again what should I do without you" I said "I wont" he said "you really scared me with the letter" I said "did you find the letter?" he said I nodded "hm weird you were sleeping when I left why did you come into me?" he said "I missed you and I didn't wanna fight anymore" I said "okay" he said"well nighty Nialler" I said "nighty princes" he said I closet my eyes and fell asleep