Justin Bieber- heartbreaker

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I sighed and walked out to them "Justin?" I said while walking over to him he looked at me "yeah?" he said the guys stopped the game "can I borrow your laptop?" I said "sure" he said "thanks" I said and walked back in I walked upstairs and tried to get into his room but it was locked but I remembered I borrowed it so it's probably in my room I walked in my room and looked it was on my desk I walked over to it and grabbed it I sat down on the edge of the bed I opened it and searched on Google fastest way to lose weight there came all sort of answers but there were one that got on my mind get myself to throw up I looked and started reading it just put two fingers in your mouth and wait to see what's going to happen okay? I put the laptop down and closet it just to be sure Justin won't see it I looked out the window they were still playing I walked in the bathroom and closet the door okay let's see if it even works I got down on my knees I was bending over the toilet this won't feel good I sticked two fingers in and with that I threw up a lot that was pretty easy I stopped just once more to get it all out I did it again and threw up it stopped after some seconds I couldn't threw more up I flushed and stood up I washed my faces and walked out Justin came in "hey" he said "hey" I said "something's wrong?" he said "no" I said while shaking my head to the sides "great" he said I gave him a quick fake smile and walked past him I walked downstairs and in the living room the guys were drinking a soda Louis had the ball under his arm Justin came back down "so are we gonna play?" Liam said "no I can't I have to make the letters" Justin said while walking in the kitchen I sat down next to Harry "can't you do it tonight?" Zayn said "no I have to do it now" Justin said while walking in with two sodas he walked over to me and handled me one of them "no thanks" I said "come on you haven't eaten all day" he said "I'm not thirsty" I said "come on" he said I sighed and took it I looked at it and all the bed thoughts came again I put it down on the table "Y/N it's delicious" he said "Justin I'm not thirsty so please let it go" I said "okay okay someone's in a bad mood" he said "well watch her and please I'm begging you not let he come in when I'm working" he said and walked over to the stairs i sighed "im scared you ask" Liam whispered to Niall I looked at them "are you okay?" Niall said "yeah I'm fine" I said "see she's perfectly fine" Harry said perfectly isn't the word or fine "well we wanna check" Zayn said "well if she wasn't smiling then she wouldn't be fine" Louis said ugh.. "A girl can fake smile you know" Niall said "Y/N smile" Harry said I looked at him and gave him a smile "see" Harry said "perfectly fine" Louis said not that word again I got up and walked upstairs "what? did I say something wrong?" I heard Louis say I walked in my room and in the bathroom I closet the door I hated myself right now I don't know why I just noticed it I'm just so fat! and ugly I just hate everything about myself right now I need to get my mind off and the only way is throwing up I got down on my knees and did the thing I threw up but not as much as before "Y/N?" an Irish accent said while knocking on the door "are you alright?" he said I got up and flushed I fast washed my face "yeah I'm fine" I said "you sure it sounded like you were throwing up?" he said I opened the door "I wasn't" I said and walked past him "why so cold? have I done anything?" he said while following me "no I'm just tired" I said and laid down on the bed "okay well I'm in my room if you need anything" he said I didn't answer him he walked out and closet the door am I the reason Justin leaves all the time? that question will be on my mind in a long time I dropped a tear why am I like this I don't usually cry over that I made a little snuffled "shh I think she's crying" I heard Harry whisper at the door I fast dried the tear away "listen guys we need to fix this Justin isn't here then we need to make it right" Liam whispered I closet my eyes and took the blanket up so they would think I am sleeping i heard them open the door "she's sleeping not crying!" Zayn whispered yelled "well sorry I couldn't really hear it" Harry whispered they walked out again I took the blanket down and cried in the pillow I got tired and cried myself to sleep

FOUR HOURS AFTER

I woke up to Justin taking his hand up and down my back it felt nice "why did you cry?" he said "I didn't" I said "why do you pillow then have mascara on it?" he said "I didn't cry" I said "you know you can talk with me about anything" he said still massaging my back "I know that" I said and sighed "I love you" he said "love you too" I said "you haven't eaten all day let's get you something" he said "no thanks" I said "but princ-" I cut him off "Justin please I just wanna sleep" I said he got quiet I shouldn't be that rough on him he's just trying to help he wrapped his hands around my stomach he got closer and started kissing my neck he got to my sweet spot an I couldn't hold it I let out a small moan and I could feel him smile before kissing me again