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I suddenly woke up, having had a weird dream about me and Mr. Kogami hugging each other at the graveyard.
No..it wasn't a dream.
Remembering the embarrassing scene I buried my blushing face under my comforters.
Wait. What happened after I cried?! I didn't seriously fall asleep, right!?
Ashamed of my existence I buried myself more under the comforters.
When suddenly someone knocked on the door.
"Yuuki...? Are you awake?"
It was Nao.
I stood up and opened the door slowly.
"How long on sleeping do you actually plan? It's noon already!"
I tensed up by his sudden low tone.
Checking the clock I jumped. It is really noon.
"Sorry...I woke up just a second ago.."
"Who cares about that?!"
I'm confused...
"U-umm."
I stared blankly at him.
He sighed.
"....Can I come in?"
I walked beside the door to let him in.
He entered the room and said.
"At least open the curtains! No wonder you sleep until that long."
He opens the curtains for me, and I narrowed my eyes of the sudden brightness.
"So..."
He went straight on talking.
"Why did he carry you home? And what's up with these flowers?"
He looked on my table, the flowers Mr. Kogami got me in a vase.
"Oh..."
I remembered when he embraced, it's as if I still feel his warmth on me, his scent, his compassion.
My heart starts pounding wildly.
What is this feeling...?
I took a deep breath to calm my beating heart, and began to speak.
"Well, I met Mr. Kogami on the way to the graveyard, and he has accompanied me..."
His gaze turned more and more to a death glare, and I gave him a questioning look.
His balls his hands in tight fist and asked with sorrow in his voice.
"Why...why do you trust him so much..?! He's your teacher, isn't he?! Who knows, what his true intentions are.."
Fed up,  I interrupted him. My tone harsh.
"Because he trusts me! You know how loneliness feels, or not?! The glares everyone gives me...I thought I could live with that, but now..." I clenched my hands, tears are falling from my eyes. "I...don't want to..to lose him, and be lonely again..!" I covered my eye with one hand, sobbing hard.
What...? Are these my true feelings? Is that what I want...?
Realizing my true feelings for Mr. Kogami, I cry even harder.
I feel the sad look Nao gives me, and I look up.
"Why..." Nao spoke up, his voice trembling.
"Why can't it be me...?"
Huh...? What did he say? What does he mean by that?
I look up at him surprised.
"We've known each other since years, yet.. why him..."
I couln't grasp what just happened and only widened my eyes even more.
Nao grabbed my by the waist and pushed my against the wall. The next moment he just kissed me. It was a light peck at first, as if to confess your feelings, but the next kiss was rough. Full of desire. I shut my eyes tightly.
No...stop.
I tried to push him away from me, but he captured my hands, holding them against the wall, no escape.
More tears are falling down. He licked them away with his tongue.
"N-Nao...please..stop it...!"
He embraced me after my words.
"I don't want to..please. Just...for a little bit. Let me stay like this.."
His tone is so sad. So sad, he might break into tears any minute.
I didn't want to, but my body wouldn't budge a single muscle, so I just stand still.
He took deep breathes, buring his head deep in my shoulder. 
A few minutes past, before loosening his hands around my back.
"Yuuki...I love you."
My hearts beats hard in my chest, and I don't know how to answer him.
"Ever since I met you, I love you."
My heart aches more and more, and tears are forming in my eyes again.
Sorry Nao...but I don't love you the way you love me..
Seeing me break into tears soon he gave me a small smile.
"Say Yuuki... do you love that Kogami sensei..?"
I shook my head at first, but soon I nodded many times uncontrollably, without saying a word. I look up at him.

 I look up at him

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"I love sensei..."
He smiles, looking seriously heartbroken.
"Well, I can't do anything about it huh? I already got that from the start."
He avoids my gaze, furrowing his brows.
He sighs.
"Well, that too bad." He turns away to leave the room.
"N-Nao...!"
He turned around, he smiles gently at me.
"Don't worry, Yuuki. I knew the answer..from the very start."
He smiles, but his tone is heartbroken. He leaves with that.

Nao closes Yuuki's door behind him, and crouches down
His eyes waver while tears form in his eyes.
"I knew since I saw them hugging each other on the graveyard..."
He covers his face with his arm, tears falling down.

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⏰ Last updated: May 25, 2017 ⏰

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