broken boy meets broken girl - C.S

5 - why

Kats Pov
"I can't do this anymore Kat" he was shouting now.
"But why Cole, everything was going so well between us" I said tears begun to well up in my eyes, my vision was blurry.
"Because I can't feel the cliche of love Kat" he yelled.
"I don't understand" I said to him, tears pouring down my face now I didn't care at this point.
"I think I love you Kat, and that just can't happen" he shouted, this time really loud, I flinched.
"But normally when you love people, Cole you want to hold them close to you and continue to love them". I said sobbing at his point I just couldn't understand what went so wrong.
"I'm not normal Kat" he said his voice softer.
"You are to me" I said quietly, I love him.
"Look Kat I can't see you anymore, we just can't happen anymore" he said bluntly. I couldn't understand how someone I loved so much could do something like this to me, even when they claim they love me. I couldn't handle it Cole was the only person who made me feel whole, like I was on top of the world nobody makes me feel the way I do when I'm with Cole and I've lost that.
After that he just left me standing there in the middle of the road crying, I couldn't handle this. I finally gathered myself together and stumbled onto my feet, my vision still blurry from my tears. I walked until I found a bottle shop and walked straight in not caring that I was underage, I looked 18 anyway. I brought Malibu alcohol and Smirnoff and 2 packs of cigarettes. I walked back to my street and collapsed crying on the comer of the curb. I opened the Malibu and skulled half the bottle, I then lit up a cigarette as they calm me. That night I drowned myself in the alcohol and tried so hard to calm myself down by smoking as many cigarettes as possible, but I'd didn't feel happy, I felt worse but at least I would forget about Cole.