broken boy meets broken girl - C.S

6 - afraid

Luke's Pov
I fucked up, I fucked up bad. I was afraid to love her. I have a tendency to ruin everything good in my life because I'm not used to it. I'm an asshole, a failure, call me every name under the sun because I deserve it and more. Truth is I've always been... sad, I never have been happy except when I was around Kat, she made everything okay again. I started drinking again, I mean I never stopped drinking but at least I used to drink with caution, these days I drink whatever I can whenever I can, I drink to get drunk I need to forget her, forget how I broke her. I used to call her everyday she never answered so I haver up. Kat hates me I'm sure of it, I can't fix this it's not possible. As I walked down and alley way I saw her drunk and smoking, now this doesn't shock me but it does worry me.
"Kat?" I asked. She looked up at me, her once gorgeous bright brown eyes, now almost black and sad.
"C c Cole?" She stuttered.
"How are you" I asked her softy, whilst resting my arm on her shoulder.
"No Cole you need to leave" she said
"Kat no" I said softly. She just got up and left.
"So what that's it Kat, just get up and leave?" I yelled out at her as I pushed back my tears.
"your the one who broke me remember?" She shouted back tears running down her face. I was lost for words, she was right.
She just looked at me with disgust "see" she scoffed and she walked off. I was left there feeling empty, lost, alone and I myself felt almost broken. She left me how I left her except she left less harsh.