Rants Of Aeri

05/23/2017

Yep, it has definitely been a while. And my life has changed a bunch. I go to yoga classes, am trying to learn to eat salad, and have stopped liking steak. Oh, and my birthday is coming up soon. I have reconnected with a friend, made a couple new ones friends in school, school is now out, and I have a crush on a guy at the aforementioned school.

Now, I won't see him again until next year if he is in orchestra with me. And although I know that he obviously doesn't like me, I cannot get my brain to accept the fact that this crush is a lost cause. It is convinced that he is the one for me, and I have tried to persuade it otherwise. I have reminded it that I'm a year younger than anyone in my grade. I have reminded it that I won't see him for 3 months. I have said that he would've actually spoken to me if he liked me. But it is so fixated on him. I have told everyone who knew about my crush that I'm over him(and not that many people knew). But my brain is convinced that stalking him on Instagram is the best past time for my mental health. It really isn't. I am tired of liking him. All I want is to get over him. But my brain is clinging to the fact that he never told me that he didn't like me. And it's positive that at some point he did like me. I haven't gotten any closure. So I am stuck with waiting until my brain forgets about him. But until then, I'm hoping this post will. So, let's describe him.

Absolutely cute, plays the bass, and is kind of a hipster, if I'm getting the definition right. He wears skinny jeans and converse with graphic tees and flannel shirts. I learned(from the forced Instagram stalking) that he listens to records, which is incredibly cool. And has decent taste in music. He never failed to make me laugh and smile in orchestra even from across the room.

If anyone has tips on how to get over a crush that you've had since the end of February(so 3 months at the time of this post), please comment or message me.

Aeri 🌼♊️