Adopted by Josh dun (discontinued)

Part 8//late night coversations, led to complications

Song reference ^ :)

I wake up suddenly. I don't know why I didn't have the nightmare or anything. Huh that's weird.. I look over at the clock. 1:45 am. After a few minutes I decide to go get a glass of water. I grab my phone and I go down the stairs as quietly as possible.

Once I get down I go to the kitchen I grab a glass and put some water in it (real complex stuff here) I decide to just go to the living room. I walk in there and see Tyler. What's he doing awake? I guess he heard me because he turned his head to me

"Why are you up, love?" Omigod he called me love. Shejekdndkenffnkdkelwksnc
"I just kinda woke up, I don't really think I'll be going back to sleep anytime soon." I reply. "Why are you up?"
"I couldn't fall asleep" he smiles I think. It's kinda dark. "Fair enough"
"You wanna come sit orrr??" He replies chuckling slightly "oh yeah um sorry" I reply as my cheeks heat up.
I walk over to the couch and sit with him.
"So tell me a little about yourself, i-if you want" did he just stutter?? Is he nervous..? No he can't be. He's probably just tired.
"Um well there's not really a lot. Watcha wanna know?"
"Do you listen to music? if so what kind?"
"Yeah. I listen to practically everything. My favorite people or bands are mcr, p!atd,fob." I say. Then look down and quietly add "tøp" I don't know why. I felt like he wouldn't like to talk to me if he knew I was a fan.
"Yo that's sick as frick!" I smile and look up at him a bit. He's smiling and looking at me. As soon as he sees me looking he looks away and blushes. Huh weird. Maybe I'm imagining stuff..
"Y'know we know all those people, right?"
I sit there. Awestruck. No way. Like I kinda knew because videos and stuff but I hadn't really thought about it. "I guess not" he chuckles I laugh a little "I did. I just haven't thought about it since getting adopted I guess"
"Understandable, a lot going on. Woah your bracelets are sick!" He exclaims just noticing them. My heart begins to race. Uh oh "oh um t-thanks"  he just smiles. I melt. His smile is honestly so perfect. "No problem. Um what's your favorite color? Original question I know" I smile "black I know it's kinda weird but I don't care" "I don't think it's weird. Mines red" I smile. We look into each other's eyes. What's happening right now!? Awe his perfect eyes- is he leaning in???? Omigod Omigod Omigod. He is. Before I really have time to process what's happening his lips touch mine. His lips are so soft. I start kissing back after a couple seconds. I don't want this to end. How our lips move perfectly in sync. But all good things must come to a end right? We both pull away. I look down quickly after. "I-I'm sorry I got um caught up in the moment i guess" he says scratching the back of his neck "oh um it's fine. My fault. Sorry" we end up in a really awkward silence. We just met!!! My brain is absolutely everywhere right now. I just fucked up so bad! He probably hates me. Oh now what'll Josh Think?? He'll hate me for sure. I'm such a massive fuck up. "I'm going up to my room" I mutter. I see Ty nod from the corner of my eye. I stand up and walk up the stairs to my room. The only words repeating in my head "fuckup" I really need to cut right now..

TRIGGER WARNING!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

I go into my room and get my blades from under my bed. I pick out the sharpest one and head to the bathroom. 1 cut, 2 cut. Before I know it my wrist has 10 cuts. I clean everything up. I put the blade back throw on a sweatshirt then lay in Bed. My thoughts eventually drift me off to sleep..

Fast forward to morning time

I wake up my wrist throbbing. Oh well I quickly take a shower and all that I get dressed in ripped black skinny jeans and a black t-shirt. I throw on a plain black hoodie. I prefer wearing long sleeves rather then bracelets over fresh cuts. I head downstairs phone in hand. I smell food don't eat anything. You're fat enough I know. I won't eat. I head to the kitchen and see Josh cooking and Tyler sitting at the table on his phone. "Hey kiddo how'd you sleep?" Josh asks. "Good" I lie Tyler looks at me. He knows I'm lying I just avoid his glaze "that's good! I made breakfast. Eat up" up think of a excuse.. I rack my brain. "I'm not really a morning eater. It makes me sick" I lie. That was pretty good if I do say so myself. "Oh okay." Josh says. "May I go to the living room?" "Of course this is your house too!"
I smile and head to the living room. I sit Down on the couch. The couch me and Tyler kissed on.. "hey, mind if I come in here?" Asks a shy Tyler. "Of course not. It's your house" he sits next to me. "Why do you um have on a sweatshirt. It's like 70 degrees?" I panic.
"Just cold" I shrug. I'm freaking out. What if he finds out? "Um kay" he replies.
Josh comes in "so we have a free day today. You can do whatever you want. We can go out if you'd like?"
"I'd rather not if that's okay"
"That's fine. I was kinda hoping you'd say that."

ANOTHER CHAPTERRR. This one is so long omg. I'm so proud of myself. I hate the chapter but whatever. Love y'all
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