Adopted by Josh dun (discontinued)

11// whats on your wrist?

This chapter will be very depressing. If you don't want to read then dm me and I'll tell you the basic storyline. Stay alive |-/

Recap:

Hmmm home alone what to do..
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Ashley's pov

I'm so upset with myself right now it's kinda unreal. Like yea I know Josh overreacted, but it's my fault.. it's only my second day here and he already hates me. Oh god what would he do if he found out me and Tyler kissed?! I didn't realize I was crying until I reached to touch my face, where hot tears covered it. I'm such a mistake. If I wasn't born, everyone's lives would be so much better. Before I can even process what I'm doing I'm heading upstairs.

Trigger warning! Self harm

I go to my room and get my blades out from under my bed. I take my favorite one- the sharpest one- and go to the bathroom.

1 cut for the family that never loved me
2 cuts for the friends that left
3 cuts for all the bullies
4 cuts for my new family that hates me
And 5 cuts for doing this to myself

Trigger over

I only did 5 because I started thinking about Alex so I stopped. I decide to just take a shower. So I strip myself of clothes and get in. The warm water consumes me, it makes the cuts sting but I deserve it. I did this to myself. After washing my hair and body I get out and wrap a warm towel around me. I put on black skinny jeans (surprise surprise) a panic! At the disco top and my famous black sweatshirt. I decide that I'm gonna go to Starbucks because I haven't eaten in 6 and a half days and I need sugar. I'll go to the gym today or tomorrow to work it all off. I slip on my red vans and head out the door, grabbing my headphones and skateboard in the process. I then start the wa- ride there. It's only 2 blocks away. Once I get there I go in and get my usual. (Just think of a Starbucks drink. The one I get has A ton of calories and that wouldn't really fit with the story :) and I can't think of any other drinks atm) once they hand me my coffee I sit down and start to drink it. I check twitter because I haven't in awhile.
Oh fuck! How does the clique do this?? They got pictures of me and Josh walking out of the orphanage, a lot of people were guessing he adopted. Well of course they are, we were walking out a orphanage for fucks sake. I decide to read some people's post about it, some were nice saying it would be a nice change for them others not so much
Why would they adopt her?? She's so ugly!
And shit like that. I finish my drink and decide to go back home before I start crying. Once I get back I head upstairs to read more of the posts
I live in a orphanage, they should've adopted me! I'm way prettier and skinnier then her🙄

I hear a car door slam. Wait they said they'd be gone for a couple hours? I check the time 7:08 pm. They left at 12 pm. Have I really been reading that long?? I guess so, oh shit I've been crying and I hear footsteps coming up the hall. I jump out of bed and run to the bathroom were I wash my face really quickly and jump back into bed and grab my phone. Right as my door was opening "foods downstairs, come eat" Tyler says not walking into my room fully. Hmm another excuse oh he already walked down um I guess I'll just go down and tell josh something? Yeah let's go with that.. I walk down "Hey um Josh I just ate like an hour ago so I'm not really hungry..." I lie. "K" he Replys, still mad I see oh.

"Ashley, what's on your wrist?" A concerned Tyler asks. I look down at my arm and my sweatshirt is pulled up. I quickly pull it down "oh um n-n-nothing. I-I Accidentally scratched myself" I stutter out. "That doesn't look like just a scratch, come here let me see" he says. I don't know what else to do so I just run up the stairs and into my room. I hear footsteps behind me. Oh no, what am I going to do??

Oooh cliffhanger, I don't like this :( I'm sorry it's rly depressing but I'm just really down rn. Sorryyyy♥️ 700+ words though!!!! I'm proud of myself for that tbh. Also double update!! Anyways I love you all
Stay street
Stay strong
Stay alive |-/