Realisation (Completed )

31.

Reaching inside the room,  randhir started breaking everything which he got in his hands.

He started oozing out his anger on the non living things.
Throwing things was not enough for him that he started hurting himself by hitting his fists on the wall making the wall paint by his blood.

Vidushi came inside to find the room in mess and randhir was standing in  the balcony with bleeding hand.

His eyes were closed but his mind was running with different thoughts.

He wanted to blame vidushi for bringing sanyu in the mansion and snatching his peace of mind but he can't do that because of vidushi;  krishi got mother's love.

He wanted to blame his mother for treating sanyu well even though sanyu was the only cause of their sadness and his miseries but he can't because he knew a mother inside renu can never push sanyu out even though she was the root cause of her son's miseries.

Randhir was lost in his deep thoughts when he heard some steady small footsteps inside the room.

The door got closed and randhir sensed vidushi's presence.

"Kyu aayi hai woh yaha vidushi?
Kyu?
Why? Answer me?
Mujhe dukhi dekh kar abhi bhi uska Mann nahi bhara?
Now what does she wants?
Already she had stolen my peace and calm.
She had changed the humble and calm randhir inside me long back and made me a monster now.
I don't remember myself.
I don't remember when I laughed freely after she took all my happiness.
Usse sirf badla lena tha naa?
Toh le leti mujhse.
Why my baby suffered in this?
Why she involved krishi in this mess?
Agar mujhse pyaar hi nahi karti thi then why she played with my feelings?

Just to take that bloody revenge she spoiled my life.
She ignored my baby just for revenge?"
Randhir was saying all these while looking at the stars.
He was crying.

"Aur ab ....ab woh....aayi hai mere bete ko dudh dene?
Pehle jab mera bachha rota tha toh bolti thi give him powder milk.
That woman never felt anything for my baby.
Toh ab kyu apna haq jata rahi hai?
Bolo vidushi why now when my baby is living happily without her.
Vidushi. ...just....just tell her to leave from here.
I can't handle her sight .
Plz vidushi I beg u......" randhir turned towards vidushi but instead he saw sanyu standing near the couch hanging her head low and shredding silent tears.

"You?" Randhir was shocked to see her.
"How dare u enter my room u cheapo" Randhir took long steps and jerked her hand.

"Told u before only apni yeh badsurat shakal mujhe mat dikhao then too u came here.
Why sanyukta?
Why?
Why u always play with my feelings?
Mujhe dukhi dekhkar tumhe khushi milti hai?
Hain naa?" Randhir asked her coming closer towards him but what sanyu did made randhir shocked and stunned.

She bend down even though her leg pained as her wounds were still fresh.

She touched randhir's feet and started crying.

"I m sorry randhir.
I m so sorry.
I have realised my mistakes randhir.
I have realised.
I know whatever I have done with u is not acceptable at all.
But randhir think in my point of view.
When I was small , badi maa adopted me and showered me with love and care which I was deprived.
She made me capable and independent.
But I never knew that whatever she said about shekhawats was all wrong.
Renu maa never snatched badi maa's  place infact badi maa was at fault.
Nahi pata tha mujhe yeh randhir.
Jab pata chala tab bohot der ho chuki thi.
Sab kuch kho chuki thi main randhir.
Everything " sanyu was sobbing clutching his legs as apology.

"Maine apna parivar apna bachha aur apna pati apne ego ke vajah se kho diya" "plz forgive  me randhir plz forgive me"

But randhir took few steps back and made her stand up on her feet.
He knew her wounds were not healed completely.

"No sanyukta. ...ur ego was never a problem.
Infact tumhare ego tak thik tha.
Revenge lena bhi thik tha because u were trained for that only.
But what u did with our relationship our marriage was not at all acceptable.

U ...u had an affair with some guy .
That was never acceptable to me.
U tried to make us suffer that was ok but cheating on me was never done sanyukta. ...never" Randhir spoke so softly with her after so many days as he knew expressing his anger on her will hurt her as well him equally

"Did....did u forgave me?" Sanyu looked at him with wet eyes and asked hesitantly.

Randhir sighed and left her arms.

"I know u are suffering much.
Living in a very miserable condition.
Hence I have decided to forgive u....." sanyu smiled widely after hearing it.
Finally she was guilt free but randhir continued.

"But it doesn't means our relationship is mended.
We are still divorced and vidushi is my lawful wife.
And krishi is my lawful son" Randhir's voice was calm.

But sanyu was gulping the words that randhir said.

He forgave her but that doesn't mean he allowed her to come in his life back.

She smiled sadly.

"Atleast u forgave me randhir.
I m happy and satisfied with that only.
Now I can die peacefully " sanyu smiled.

Randhir looked at her.
He didn't believed that she is same sanyu.

"And don't worry randhir I won't snatch krishi from u.
He is only urs.
M no one to him.
Vidushi hi uski maa hai" sanyu said and started taking steps to the door but randhir stopped her.

"U can stay here.
I won't mind.
I know the place u used to stay in under development
Till u find a new place .
U can stay here......then...." he stopped in between but she completed.

"Then I'll leave" sanyu smiled.

"Thank u randhir. 
Thank u so much.
I owe u for this" sanyu joined her hands and left from there.

Here randhir kept looking at her vanishing figure and thought when did their relationship became so formal.

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Sabse bakwas chapter hai.
But kar lo read ab.

tbc