bad bitch life

pose*

...this is out of the topic but its about me in the current days...

....they say ma eyes are beautiful, nd how they have never looked deep down smthg like that , nd then just , or somehow when i get attached by them, nd intrest in , they....left..

its was like the "one night stand", though ive never wanted to be someone's night stand*....

its not once, or twice, its many times, ive been in this stuation, nd i just didnt get it, didnt get the WHY*.....

maybe i dont deserve, or.., they dont like the serious realtionships, nd ma only qstion, the only thing i care to know , is why u even chose me,!!!!...
i didnt force anyone to come to me, im not that much despered to have a guy,

nd yet again, feeling empty is what make me fallin in mistakes or maybe get fooled by some sweet talk , nd with that i lose trust in everyone esle, so maybe the r8 one someday wont be able to be with me , cz i wont believe, that he want me for real, i will think its just like the past times...just like the past times..the timessss. when i felt truely happy for being around ppl like them, ppl who left me, when i cant get it at all.........

for reaaaaal what the fuck is happening in ma life.....

its..done..i guess....,~ND