bad bitch life

another miracle..! "

well maybe if i wished another miracle from the chptr title it will happen , just like the past one!!

dubvision, hollow song"

"when darkness falls asleep.."

i dont know what should i do , in my deep im sure that Collin will come another time, cz from all the past times, in everytime he said its done, he come back, he really want make it work ,he still want the thing called us"".

14 april ;
i sent him a msg on facebook, this morning while i was in classroom  saying; " i want to c u again plz bae, i missed u and as always i love you, till forever "", but he wasnt online, so till the afternoon, he replied, ;"" you know what i want if i will come"", i was happy cz he replied and that i have a chance to see him, do what i regret that i didnt when he came the last time, so it's great..

;"it's kind of another miracle"

i asked from him to come for me on the next sunday, afternoon ,with insisting , that if he wont come , i wont take him seriosly again, in my inside , i will always believe in him, and trust him whatever happened.

"i hope he will show up, for me"..

shawn mandes, Aftertaste"..
 
sometimes, you dont get what u want in life, and you cant just, wait things to happen , sometimes you have to chase them..

17  April;  its 6am  and  yes  i've  school today,  at  7 not 8,  cz  the  history  teacher  want  to  sumerise  some  lessons  before  last  year  exam..

last  thursday,  i asked  from  Collin  to  come,  and  he  suppose  to  show  up  today..

well i didnt saw him today, and i've drop some tears , cz , he didnt show up and i was sad.
when i got home i opened my facebook ,and i saw a msg of him , saying ; " i came today and i was looking for you, but i didnt saw u!"".
omg he came, and i didnt saw him, at the afternoon, i was almost wenting down stairs, but then his little brother came, and he wanted me to makeout , i was so sad that Collin didnt come, or as i thought,  and then we've kissed each other, before going out school.
i replied that  im sorry, and  i was looking for him as well, but i didnt found him , i felt guilty when i saw his msg, cz he was there , looking for me, and i was making out !!, omggg, that was horrible.

i wantted so bad to see him, and he respond to my msg , he came for me, it's true i didnt found him , but at the end i shouldnt be makingout with his brother, i was saaadd, i should been waiting for him , for the rest of my life, as i promised him that i will ...

OMGGG that was awefull, what im going doooo...
read new chptr for newss between alexa and Collin
i wanna make it up for him, he wantted to see me, and i do as well, so im going do smthg spcl for him..