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phil//

dan and i were sat on the sofa, both exhausted. it was nearly two in the morning.

when we'd gotten back to my apartment we decided to watch tv for a bit. we started a new series together, which was a mistake because all we wanted to do was keep watching, but we were both falling asleep on each other.

dans head was resting on my shoulder, his warm breath grazing my neck every other second. i leaned against him. the back of our hands were touching, but not interlocked with one another. it was okay though. because our hands had been like magnets throughout that entire day. just the mere feeling of dans hand against mine was enough to send my mind into endless fields of warmth and happiness.

"phil, i'm tired." dans croaky words were followed by a yawn, which made me yawn.

"me too," i rubbed my eyes. "why don't you sleep in my bed tonight?"

"where will you sleep?"

"here." i motioned at the sofa we were sitting upon.

dan shook his head. "no, it's okay."

"dan."

he shook his head, still refusing the offer.

"dan."

i poked his side.

"come onnn,"

i poked him again and again and again.

dan let out a small laugh, "phil- phil- don't do-" dan said between his laughing as i kept poking him, causing him to squirm. i knew how ticklish dan was, and that gave me an advantage during arguments.

his hair started to fall into his eyes as he flailed on the sofa.

i ended up straddling him, tickling both sides of his torso.

"okay! okay!" dan took both of my hands in his. "but don't complain about how uncomfortable the sofa is in the morning."

i laughed, "i'll try not to."

we sat in silence like that for a while after sharing a small awkward laugh. when our eyes met, they wouldn't go anywhere else. no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't wander my gaze anywhere else. his eyes almost visibly locked into mine. the colour in his irises was so defined, and stood out so well. it was so clear and solid and beautiful. the way that after you stare into his eyes for so long, they don't look so dark, and you can almost make out the small patterns in his irises left me speechless. the way our eyes always met so perfectly was profound. i didn't want to stop looking at him, but i thought i should at least get off of him.

as i brought up one of my  legs off of him, dans hand reached out and softly pulled it back down. i inhaled, knowing what i was going to do next.

dan bit his lip, his eyes traveling from the lower region of my face, back up to my eyes.

my stare flickered slowly from his lips to his eyes, in attempt to non-verbally ask if it was okay. in response, he tilted his head down a bit and softened his eyes.

i blinked slowly as i leaned down. when our lips met, i closed my eyes. so did he.

his soft lips followed the small movements of mine in a subtle manner. he wrapped his arms around my neck, bringing our faces closer together, strengthening the kiss. even though our eyes were closed, this moment gave me the brightest sight. it was like finally being able to look at the sun without having to squint due to the pain in your eyes.

i felt as if i was swimming in beautiful, nonexistent colours.it was a feeling of comfort, relief, safety, warmth. everything.

i felt one of dans arms leave my neck and reach for the table, his lips still connected with mine. i didn't know what he was reaching for, but i didn't want to stop.

i realized he was blindly searching for the remote to turn the tv off when the room was filled with silence. but even through the silence, i could hear minimal music in my mind that fitted the mood in which we were kissing. it was perfect.

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sorry my updates have been delayed, i just got done with school which means i just got done with finals and those are actual hell?

but did u hear halsey's new album bc fuck.