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phil//

one month.

i can't do anything. i can't think about anything. really, the only thing i've done is take care of dil.

i lost my job a few days ago.

i feel nothing. nothing at all.

everything is just going downhill too fast. i can't believe this one event left me in such a bad state.

he had a hold on me.

no matter how much i sleep, how much i drink, i can't forget about those dark eyes. that captivating smile. that soft skin. that warm scent. that inviting voice.

that look he used to give me when he knew i was about to kiss him.

the way he'd brush his hands down through his hair.

that laugh he'd let out when i was being especially clumsy.

the rosiness that developed in his cheeks when i'd compliment him.

i miss dan so much.