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phil//

i love him so much.

but we shouldn't have to spend so much money just to spend time together. we shouldn't have to leave our obligations. this will affect dan's future for the negative. skipping classes and not doing schoolwork. growing distant with his family and friends. spending all of his money. wasting his time.

wasting his time.

i'm not worth his time. his money. anything.

this week was amazing. i don't want to lose dan, but this is going to put his entire future at stake. he'll be unhappy, and god i cannot stand to see that boy unhappy.

i'm in love with him though.

his well-being is the most important thing to me. i have to do something. i can't just watch him throw his whole future down the drain just so he can tend to my own happiness. what kind of selfish asshole would that make me?

dan howell deserves the entire universe.

i can't give that to him.