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dan//

floating.

shot into blackness.

i couldn't see anything. i heard a faint conversation coming from somewhere i couldn't reach. i had no idea what they were saying.

suddenly- stars. so many stars all around me. i floated about, observing them. i was in such a state of calmness, it felt surreal. everything was relaxed and nothing in particular was on my mind, except for my current surroundings.

i came across two bright blue stars- except for i don't think they were stars. are those- eyes? do i know those eyes?

oh my god.

phil.

everything was so easy to forget here, i don't really remember a lot of what happened before. i don't even know how long i've been here, it feels like it could easily be just minutes, but at the same time it could be years. i don't know. the only thing i remember so well- is phil.

those blue eyes. the way they'd stare into mine was so comforting, it immediately put me at ease. every single blended line and hidden wave in the blue of his eyes was so alluring. it was like a painting, but no painting would ever be able to perfectly capture every detail in his bright eyes. it would never be able to capture the sense of importance you feel when his eyes take yours in. it would never be able to capture the way that when his looks you, nothing else matters. it would never be able to capture the way simply looking into his eyes slowly causes you to unknowingly fall in love with him.

i miss him.

i miss him a lot.

suddenly, everything crumbled down. i floated upward, toward a bright warm light. it had beams of yellow, orange, pink. i felt the warmth on my face. i closed my eyes for a few seconds- or days, i don't know- and reached up.

i opened my eyes.

bright.

what's on my-

"dan?"

that voice.

i turned my head.

pale skin. dark hair. bright bright blue eyes.