Madhouse

8

First comment gets a dedication in the next chapter .

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Sayra .

It's been a week since Shakur's death and Chris has been acting the fuck out . He's been in the white room ever since we returned to the institution . I talk to him at the window every night since he has nobody else . Jessie's been acting funny too , she's always going to the secret spot and I be in the room at night sleeping by myself . Honestly , I feel like I have nobody , now that Shakur is gone I only fuck with Chris and Jessie and they're not even being their selves . I made my way to the cafeteria for a water bottle when I seen August and Cali pointing at me . Lord knows i'm not in the fucking mood so I went up to their table . "Is there an issue?"

"Run along bitch . " Cali said , moving her hands in a 'go away' motion .

I moved closer to her face . " Cali , don't start suttin ' you can't finish . "

She rose to her feet , she was a little bit taller then me but she wasn't scaring nobody . "Who said I can't finish it ? "

I punched her in her face then we started fighting again . I tackled her to the floor and of course August and the guards pulled me off of her . When August picked me up I still had a good grip on her hair .

"Let my fucking hair go bitch!" She screamed in pain , but it only made me pull harder .

"Let it go Sayra ! " August yelled , trying to remove her hair out of my hand . Eventually I let go , then the guards threw me in the white room . I was faced down on the floor just sobbing . I was punching the floor and kicking until I felt a hand soothing my back . I had almost forgotten Chris was in here . I sat up and moved against the wall with my knees to my chin .

"What'd you do?" He questioned , moving closer to me .

I sighed . " I fought Cali again . "

He grinned . "You did it on purpose didn't you?"

A smile crept across my face . "Maybe , maybe not ."

"Good cause I was finna go crazy in here , I need a change of scenery . "

"Maybe if you stop doing dumb shit you would have it ."

"I can't help it Sayra .." He snuggled up close to me , putting his chin between my breast . Eventually we fell asleep talking to eachother .

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Chris .

"Shakur? What are you doing here?" I questioned , wiping the cold sweat off of my forehead . "I thought you were dead?"

"Nigga listen to me , and listen closely ." He whispered .

Was I bugging? I could've sworn this nigga was dead.. What the fuck ? "I'm listening ."

"Watch your back around here at all times , you're not safe . "

I rubbed my eyes . "What are you talking about?"

"Josiah . Just be---" He faded away when Mrs. Trent opened the door to the white room .

"Go back to your rooms ." She said with slight attitude in her voice , she left the door open then walked away .

I shook Sayra gently , instead of her going back to her room I just led her to mine . It was only five in the morning so we slept for a couple more hours until she woke up at nine to go back to her room . Looking at Shakur's empty bed just made me break down , I couldn't stop crying . His clothes , his axe , the soap he used to wash himself was just where he left it and I wasn't planning on moving it . I know I sound gay but I don't care . He was the realest nigga I've ever met , that was my bestfriend , and now he's gone , and he's never coming back . I was trying to think whether that was a dream or did I really see Shakur's ghost . I don't even know what he was talking about ... Watch my back? Niggas is plottin' on me obviously , but why ?

Jessie .

There was no doubt I was contemplating suicide , of course . But ain't nothing I could do about Shakur's death except sit around and be upset . I've been sleeping in the secret spot lately , I just wanna be alone . August has been comforting me though , more then comforting , more like fucking . Cali doesn't know obviously , and I don't want her to know either cause that would be hell . I just haven't been thinking straight , i've been obvlious to my irrational ass decisions . I walked into my room for the first time in four days and Sayra's eyes lit up , ha , I missed this girl .

"Finally!" She jumped to her feet , she pulled me in for a tight hug . "Are you done going M.I.A?"

"Yeah... For now."

"Fuck you mean for now? You mean forever!"

I let out a little laugh . "Fine... Forever ."

To be honest I dont know if i'm gonna tell Sayra about the whole me and August doing it thing . She's against August and she will KILL me if she finds out .. I hate being at fucking crossroads .

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Sayra .

We all sat down in our normal spots at the circle ... The only empty seat was Shakur's , but I tried not to focus so much on that .

"How's everyone doing today?" Mrs . Trent announced , crossing her legs .

Nobody spoke , instead , they looked down .

"Look , I know you guys are upset about Shakur's death ," she began , "but he wouldn't want you to be upset ."

"That's easy for you to say ." Chris mumbled .

Today's session was very heated , they started to blame eachother for Shakur's death which I find unfair . Nobody said anything to me , they know better , they seen the way I beat up Cali .

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I woke up to the shaking of my shoulder .

"Christopher what the fuck?" I whispered , "you always doin that shit, wakin me up out of a dead sleep , you know you can brain damage a nigga like that!"

"Sorry but listen , you tryna sneak out tonight or nah?"

Was this nigga stupid? "No, the fuck?"

He frowned , he knows them damn eyes of his gets to me . "Why not?"

"Because if Mrs. Trent f--"

He cut me off . "Fuck Mrs . Trent , you coming with me or no?"

I ran my fingers through my short , curly hair then sighed . "How are we doing this?"

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We walked outside into the warm , breezy air . My stomach was hurtin tryna squeeze my ass out that tiny window .

"Where do you wanna go first?" Chris asked with his arm around my shoulder .

I giggled , "what's open at 2 o'clock in the morning?"

"Oh shit you right ."

For the remainder of the night , Chris and I were just walking around , enjoying the freedom we had . I was upset once we got back to the institution , I miss the real world .

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As you can tell , I was getting lazy towards the end , my apologies ... But I released this chapter a bit earlier then planned ! Lmao . Comment and vote !!!