Falling for a killer//l.t

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Louis POV

Have you ever loved someone so much knowing they don't love you back? Well they did love you back until you did something so detestable it's practically unforgivable, I know that feeling, it's common to my system. I wish it wasn't.

I would do anything to reverse back to the day I drained the life out of Rose and stop myself from causing her hatred and my heartache.

Each day we seem to be getting closer. Baby steps. I know it will take a while to regain her full trust in me but I'm willing to wait, I'm willing to wait for the day my dead heart powers joy and butterfly's in my stomach, I'm willing to wait for the day I can tell rose how much I love her and she will mimic my own words, I will wait and I will wait patiently for that special day to come.

The courageous part of me wonders on what she would say if I asked her on a date. However, my timid and sensible side still shines through, warning me that this could only put me deeper into my issues with Rose and that's the last thing I want.

Maybe she would say yes, I could take her on a picnic by that little stream, she would love that it's beautiful down there!

But then again the chances she would say no are high and nerve wracking. She would hate me even more, probably feel pitiful that I would think I had a shot with her. That would be devastating and humiliating.

Although before I was turned my mother told me a lot of things along the lines of 'never give up your dreams' or 'everything happens for a reason'. She also told me to not to be afraid to take risks, I remember that day clearly...

--flashback--

"I can't do it!" The blue eyed boy who represented the younger and smaller version of me, argued.

"Of course you can lou!" My mother encouraged, placing a hand on my shoulder. I focused my orbs back onto the grey haired man that I called coach.

"N-no he'll yell at me and say no" I sobbed quietly. My mothers eyes softened as she bent down on one knee, becoming my eye level.

"Lou, you don't know that, you've worked really hard this season and I know he'll let you play the whole game, now wipe your tears and take a risk!" Her encouraging words still didn't bring the rebel in me out.

"I'm afraid" I whispered.

"Never be afraid to take risks Louis' it's important to be brave and stick up for what you believe in"

I looked into her eyes once more before nodding and walking over to coach.

--flashback over--

My coach did let me play the whole game and he said he was proud of me for being mature and asking instead of sitting on the sideline being stubborn and upset.

Taking that risk sure did help me so maybe I should take the risk with Rose.

Yes! I think I will echo my mothers words and take a risk, I'm going to ask Rose on a date.

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Hey y'all! Here's your update!!!!

Yay Louis' gonna ask out Rose!!! #louse ;)

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