lights out ▻ justin foley

28 - gone

lilliana

his eyes shot open as i grinned and bolted towards him as i engulfed him in the biggest hug i'd given anybody.

"justy, you're awake," i breathed out shakily as tears stained my cheeks and he grinned. "yes, yes i am," he whispered as he pulled me in for a kiss.

beep beep beep.

i rubbed my eyes as i groaned and shuffled awake to see doctor's crowding around justin as i panicked and asked a nurse what was happening.

"justin's heart stopped," she explained as mine did too.

i dropped to my knees as the nurses escorted me out and i sat at the door emotionless. i couldn't feel anything. i was completely numb.

"ms kole? i'm sorry but -" the doctor started as the next few words he said ended my life.

"justin foley did not make it," he ended as tears welled up in my eyes and i heard footsteps pounding towards me. i dropped to the floor with zach catching me.

"he's gone," i whispered as he engulfed me in a hug and i just sat on the floor with my hands by my side.

"it's been less than a month since i've been his and he left me," i breathed out as the realisation of justin dying settled into me, tears welled up in my eyes.

i stood up and walked in to see justin lying there on the bed, lifeless. "hey justy," i smiled as i sat on the bed.

tears rolled down my cheeks as i smiled and held his hand.

"i'll miss you baby," i smiled as i stood up and walked out, with red nose and wet cheeks.

"lilz, this is from justin. he told me to safe keep it for him," zach told me as he pulled out a jewellery box and an envelope. "thanks zach," i thanked as i opened the jewellery box and saw a beautiful necklace with a rose and a heart and on the back of the diamond heart, it has 'justin and lilliana' carved in.

hey lilz,

my baby, my life, my bestfriend, my everything.
i would've either gave this to you or i would've asked you if i got the balls to do that. anyways, i love you so much. i love that you noticed my battle scars when i never even noticed yours. i love that you love me. i love that you have such a good heart. i love that you don't want to hurt me. i love that you love everyone. i love that you will sacrifice yourself for others.

lilliana kole you are probably the one person i will ever need in my life. you are the cutest, sweetest and prettiest girl i know and you're definitely everyone's dream girlfriend.

i hope you say yes to the question i'm about to ask you or else i don't know what i'd do without you.

will you be my girlfriend?

the beach at 6pm tonight. i love you.

see you beautiful

justin xoxo

my heart cracked whenever he listed out what he loved about me. the beach at 6. that's how he wanted it to go.

my heart would ache everytime i thought about how if i didn't want to go, we could've just cuddled at home and none of this would've happened and justin would be right next to me and i would've been cheering for him while he was in his game.

"justy," i cried out as i put the note down.

this has got to be the most painful thing that i've ever been through.