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gloomy

Just some depressive shit you don't have to read

I feel sad because I noticed I don't really have friends irl? It's weird how a stupid music festival made me realize such a thing. I thought they're temporary. I was wrong.

I don't know why I'm always forgetting I have noone. There's so many things I want to do, see. But I don't have anyone to share these with.

Literally. Plays, weddings, shows, concerts, museums. None of my "friends" would come with me. They just invite me to parties I don't enjoy and costs a lot of money.

And everytime I'm realizing I'm alone, I'm forgetting about it after some time.

The circle is going on.

I feel if I'd have my friends I made online beside me I'd be the happiest person ever. They make me so happy even through the screen I can't express it. I feel important thanks to them and I love them so so much and feel grateful for meeting them.

But the case is that I still feel lonely.

I'm sorry for being emotional and making this sad update. I feel weird writing everything but I just wanted to let everything out.

I'll just go to sleep for now.
Goodnight everyone!