Mercy//Phan

10

PJ had a plan. That's why he apologized so quickly for asking Dan. He was going to go to their apartment when they got back and knew Phil was out. He was going to make a move on Dan that was something Phil would never do. Chris watched as his best friend walked very swiftly into his "craft room". He felt like he was up to something so when the door was closed he sat in front of the locked door with his computer and listened to PJ talk to himself.

The trip went by quickly and Dan had barely said a word to anyone. The only conversations he was was with Martyn, Phil, and his mom. All Phil's mom wanted to know was who asked who, when they realized they felt this way about each other, and how did the person ask. In which they told the whole story and added in the part where they always wanted to say something but never did because they didn't want to ruin the friendship of the other person didn't feel the same.

Phil had notice the way Dan was acting during the Florida trip and when they were at home the week after. Dan wasn't talking and distancing himself from Phil. He was locking himself in his room again and not eating. He started wearing sweatshirts and long sleeved jumpers more often. When he would notice the sleeve had rolled up he would quickly pull it down and cover his hands. There was a few times when the sleeve rolled up and Phil noticed cuts going up Dan's wrist.

One day when the sleeves rolled up on the black jumper Dan was wearing Phil grabbed his arm and pulled up the sleeve with tears in his eyes, "What have you been doing to yourself Dan?" He looked away from the teary eyed boy sitting next to him and tried to pull his arm away from him but he had a tight grip on his arm. "You're hurting yourself. This could lead to something worse and there is no way in hell I'm letting you leave me. Not yet. Not like that."
"Phil. I'm fine. Stop worrying. It'll blow over and I'll be fine." He tried to pull his arm away again but Phil still had a strong grip on him.

"We are going to fix this. I don't want to take you to the hospital for this. You are not fine, Dan, there is something wrong going on with you and we are going to try and fix it. It needs to start with you telling me what's wrong." The look he gave Dan said everything he wanted to say but couldn't find the words.

He sighed and said, "If I knew what was wrong I would tell you but I have no idea what's running through my head. Everything is like a jumbled up mess. There are things I've never thought of before this happened. Phil I know you want to help but I just need to figure out what's wrong first. There's a pain that's been running through my body and I just can't figure it out."

There were even more tears in Phil's eyes as he pulled Dan into his arms causing him to start tearing up also. He wrapped his arms around Phil's neck and rested his head on his shoulder slowly dampening his shirt. The two ended up falling asleep on the couch in each other's arms.

Phil woke up about an hour later and slowly slipped out of Dan's grip before walking to the bathroom to take out his contacts and put on his glasses.

When he walked back into the living room Dan was sitting up staring out the window across from the couch looking pale. That's when Phil notice the large amount of blood running from Dan's arm. He looked at Phil with tears in his eyes and a smile on his face. "Phil. I can see my grandfather. He's standing behind you."

Phil turned and looked behind him. "Dan there's no one there." His voice cracked as tears started to form in his eyes and the lump in his throat got bigger.

"Yes there is. He's telling me to go with him. I want to go with him Phil. I want to be with him." Dan fell onto the couch and Phil ran over to him checking his breathing before grabbing his phone and dialing 999.

The ambulance arrived quickly and before he knew it he was watching the person he loved the most be taken out on a turkey and put into the back of the ambulance.

"Can I please ride with him? I need to be with him if he doesn't make it." Phil pleaded.

"What's your relation to Mr. Howell?"

"He's my boyfriend."

"Get in. Don't let anyone know I allowed this."

He quickly climbed into the back and grabbed Dan's hand. "Please stay with me. Don't leave me now. I need you. I love you more than you will ever know. I can't loose you. I just can't. Please baby, stay with me."
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Holy shit look who isn't dead. So I finished the packet to make up for being gone so long. ALSO if you haven't read it yet I highly recommend you read Snapchat by rickyblitzz. IT'S AMAZING AND MADE ME VV EMOTIONAL.