Dear ____,
I have known you forever, my love, yet I have not always known you.
Before, you were just another person, another mind with which to share my thoughts. I thought nothing would ever change.
I was wrong.
There was Before, and then there was a day. A day when everything changed. A day when I started to see you differently. That day changed my life forever. Now I cannot go back, I must live with the consequences.
Before, I did not notice. I did not see you in the way that I do now. I did not see the beauty, the wonder.
But that day, my love, I saw it. I saw you for what you are, for what could be, for what you will be.
And now, my love, I am in the After. I have had these realisations, yet I continue to notice more. I continue to see you, in a way that you do not see me.
And it hurts, my love. It hurts that you will never notice me, never see me for what I am, what I could be. What I could be to you. It hurts beyond all pain you could possibly imagine.
But I still have you. Wonderful, glorious you. Your imagination, your dreams, your hopes. I still have you.
For now.
Yours Forever,
N
