The Hidden Mind

A Visit From You

Nights like this

I wasn't built for this

Been dealing with you for a minute

But you come and go when you please

A hit out no where

You managed to always change my best days

You came to see me today

Knocked my smile right away

It was about 6:02 when you came through

You said " how do you do "

And snatch the words right out my mouth

Your next sentence

" I'll suck you dry tonight "

I felt you hit me like a ton of bricks

You had me at my purest

My lowest

Exposing my ugliest

You told me, I want you forever

Consuming me, uncontrollably

You did me the dirtiest

And you never did care, how you left me after

Washed up, dried up

All full with angel dust

Praying there's a way I can recover

But I knew you'll be back again

Like I said you come and go like you please

Fighting you, with positivity

Reading quote after, quote each day

Sticky notes all on my window

Like " Babygirl your beautiful ", out the shower reading " Your worth the world, believe it your gold "

Just for you to come through that night

And slap that all out my life

Why curse me, like I broke you

I could have swore, I loved you

But you broke me, night after night

Rape me night, after night

I would have rather been anywhere else

Every second with you

I was screaming

Like anywhere else please

Hit me with amnesia, please me

Like a coma would be nice

You locked me in

A room in hell with only my name on the door

I should have took the other door

I was so full of love

Tonight, I'm emptiness

The tears with no meaning

And you didn't come alone

You bought your closet friends ...

Y'all were the scars that cover my body

Like drowning, air was my relief

Your cancer to me

You left me, crumbled to the floor

Hands on my face, face scrunched up letting out that first gasp

You've changed me

Now I'm stuck with hypoprenia

Stuck feeling sadness without a cause

All the things you made me scream at the top of my lungs

Well it's 12:02 and since you came early

You decided to leave too

I wasn't prepared, like I said my day was good

But, next time I'll be waiting for you

And you'll be the one with the hit

Like a ton of bricks

You won this battle, but I'll will the war

I'll take back my happiness

And destroy you all

No more " I'm fine "

Cause you might have won this battle

But I win the war