All I Ever Wanted

Counting Stars and Chasing Cars

"Neither of you should be taking care if me." I groaned and glanced at Lizzie as I shifted my head on Steven's lap "especially you."

Lizzie rolled her eyes as she put a glass of ginger ale in my hand "sweetie, I've been out of the hospital for a month now. I'm fine, I swear. You, on the other hand, have a virus that need to get out of your system."

"I'll be fine, I don't need to be coddled. Maybe cuddled though." I added, looking up at Steven "tell her."

Steven grinned and looked at Lizzie "You heard the girl. Back off."

"Hey, I'm trying to get her well enough to go on tour with you, Steven. Doing you a favor." Lizzie shot back.

"I can miss the tour, you know." I said, getting up a little to fast. My head pounded and my stomach clenched. I pinched my noise and sat down on Steven's lap and laid my head on his shoulder. I felt like crap for quite a while, only getting worse "it's not a big deal. Or I'll come as soon as I feel better."

"No!" Lizzie said, looking at me and Steven "you can't just bail on the tour, right Steven?"

"If she's not feeling up to it, she's not feeling up to it." He defended, although I noticed the disappointment in his voice.

Lizzie did too "Amy. C'mon. You'll be fine!"

"Why do you want me to go so bad?" I laughed, raising an eyebrow "Trying to get rid of me?"

"No! Course not! You and Steven just need some alone time."

"Lizzie's right" Steven said "we never have alone time. There's always someone hear, whether it's Joe or that Nico kid or Tom or her" he said, jerking his thumb at Lizzie, who nodded.

I laughed "And when we go on tour, we keep Tom and Joe, replace Nico and Lizzie with Joey and Brad, and add in the fans, the roadies, the wives, hell, everyone." I countered "there's no alone time!"

"Damnit, Amy." Lizzie groaned "Why do you gotta make it hard? Stop over thinking this! You haven't enjoyed yourself in a while, as I've heard, you need this."

"You know how I hate saying this, but Lizzie is right. You haven't been yourself, and it's not just the virus" Steven said "just see this as a mini vacation."

"Didn't you just say it doesn't matter?" I said, looking over at Steven.

"I just didn't want to make you feel bad."

I sighed "Alright, alright, I'll go. Jeez." I smiled a closed my eyes "Now can one of you get me an aspirin?"

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"Amy, get up, we landed."

I blinked my eyes open and looked around the plane to see everyone getting off. Crap, I didn't even remember getting up that morning. I stretched and grabbed Steven's outstretched hand, following him out if the plane."

The first show was in New York, and it was nice being home and all.

I c on to Steven as we stepped off the plane, feeling dizzy and light headed and all. "I feel sick." I whispered to him as we walked from the plane towards a car waiting for us.

"Okay, okay. Mothered a bathroom right inside, come on." Steven said as he turned around.

"No, I'm fine, I can go by myself. I'll be out in a few minutes." I said as I let go of Steven and made my way towards the bathroom.

I shoved the door open and found the closest stall, ran in and threw up.

Yay me.

I left the stall after a few minutes and went to the sink, looking at my reflection. "What is wrong with me?" I whispered