What Now? (Carl grimes fanfic)

Chapter 19 - "Stop! That tickles!"

It was hard to believe that she was alive. Michonne was here. She found us. I couldn't hardly believe it but it was true. I think at that moment I saw her face, a fire was lit inside me that there was more hope than I thought there was.

I sat at the table eating more cereal. Carl sat next to me also eating.

" How long did you stay up last night?" I asked him looking up from my bowl. "Not long after you fell asleep." he said eyeing the stale cereal in his bowl.

"Thanks to you, I fell asleep." I told him smiling. He chuckled, "Yeah well you said your shoulders hurt." I smiled even more remembering last night.

"You give the best massages!" I bragged to him causing him to blush. "Your welcome." he shook his head. I stood from my spot and walked over to his seat. When I was behind him, he turned and looked at me funny. " What are you doing?"

I grabbed his shoulders and pulled him against the seat. "Just relax." I told him rubbing my fingers to massage his shoulders. I heard him chuckle again. He gave in to me and relaxed, laying his head back. I smirked lowering my head down to his ear.

Whispering, "I love you." to him just as Michonne walked in.  I didn't notice her standing there watching us.

I kissed behind Carl's ear and down the side of his neck. His smile turned into a smirk. Finally letting her presence be known, Michonne cleared her throat causing me to jerk away from Carl. He stood from his seat blushing.

My face also heated up and I could feel the pink in my cheeks. She laughed at us and I sent her a playful glare. Walking over and taking my seat again, I went back to eating.

Carl laughed causing me to look up. "What? You have something to say about my extremely attractive shirt?" Michonne smiled down at her clean, white shirt. I giggled at the two.

"No, No it looks great." Carl chuckled as she sat down and poured herself a bowl of cereal. 

"I wish I had some soy milk." she said looking at me. "Seriously?" Carl asked causing her to laugh. "Yes seriously. Have you ever tried it?" she asked him and he nodded. He then explained to her about his experience with soy milk, which didn't turn out good. I laughed when he said he threw up.

"I would rather have powdered milk that to have to drink that stuff. I would rather have Judith's formula." It got silent, Carl's smile disappeared and my laugh got choked in my throat. He stood fast from his spot mumbling about some book he was reading that he needed to finish.

I sighed standing up too and walking after him. I probably shouldn't follow him. I probably should give him his space. But I'm not, because I want to be by his side and help him deal with this. It's my job and I'm not letting him go.

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I found him sitting in the boys room on the bed with Les Misérables in his hands. I smiled a little, walking over to the bed and sitting next to him.

"Why did you follow me?" he asked without looking at me.

"Because I wanted to." I told him playing with a loose hem on my shirt. "I'm serious Emeli." he said finally dropping the book to look at me.

"I am too." He rolled his eyes at me and picked the book up again. "No." I grabbed it and threw it on the bed next to me. Quickly, as if an instinct, climbing on his lap to prevent him from leaving.

"You have to listen to me sometime." I grabbed his face in my hands and held it so he could look at me.

"What if I don't want to?" he asked. "You just have to." I argued.

"Listen, you can't stop doubting yourself that she's alive. I know she is." I told him but he shook his head no.

"How do you know this?" he asked angered. "I just do, okay!" He tried to push me off of him but I grabbed his hair to keep hold. "Let me go!" he fussed. "No!"

"Why?!" he looked agitated. "Because I love you and I will never let you go." my eyes pleaded with his to just let me in. He looked up to me and the tears came. He wrapped his arms around my waist; pulling my stomach to his face as he cried.

" I know, I know." I rubbed his hair. He never let me in like this. He never opened up and cried in front of me. He always tried to put on a brave face.

"I miss her. I should have been there to protect her!" His voice was muffled into my shirt.

"You couldn't protect everybody." I told him lifting his chin up to face me. "It's not your fault." He just stared at me.  " I love you." I looked down at him. " I love you more." he said pulling my head down. Finally giving me the kiss I missed so much. His lips were warm and his cheeks were wet. My fingers tangled in his greasy hair, slightly tugging it. This was how it was supposed to be.

He flipped us over; hovering over my body. I smirked at him as he kissed my neck and up behind my ear causing me to squeal. "Stop! That tickles!" I giggled trying to push his chest away.

"That's payback for teasing me." he smiled down to me relating to my kisses earlier. Quietness consumed the room as we stared at each other. It wasn't the uncomfortable silence but the romantic silence when you stare into each others souls. Embracing the fact that we were together and happy. If only it was always like this.

"Your beautiful." Carl broke the silence and I blushed at his comment. "Well, that's new." I told him causing him to laugh. "Well, it's true." he said as I pulled his head down for another kiss. Not ever wanting to break that kiss.

A/N: I wanted to have a chapter where they reconnect so I thought why not here?! Hope you liked it! Please Comment and vote! Keri <3 xo