Musing

Day 14- 06/04/2017

I'm sorry that I ask too many questions about where you are, where you've been or who you were with. I'm sorry that I always ask about how your day was and what you did. I'm sorry that I annoy you when I want to make sure you are doing okay.

I'm sorry that I come to your recitals and games and concerts even if you never invite me. I'm sorry that I pester you to sleep early, to do your homework or to eat enough. I'm sorry that I keep saying how bad drinking is or smoking is for your health. I'm sorry that I care too much to let the little things slip pass me.

I'm sorry that when I text you I try to keep the conversation going or have lunch with you all the time because I enjoy your company. I'm sorry that I cling to you like velcro in a sea of strangers when you want to mingle with everyone else, and that I tag along in your activities or text you everyday.

I'm sorry that I act like this even though I've known you for only so long. I'm sorry that I think we're closer friends than what you think this is.

It's just that I've always cared so much whether I've known for years or for only a few hours; whether we talk everyday or only through the comment section on Facebook posts. I just always think that we should treat others the way we want to be treated. I mean that's what they always say, right?

I'm sorry that I hoped you cared as much as I did. I'm sorry that I come off as clingy and annoying. I'm sorry that I feel as though this is it, that this is the relationship where I finally get what I've been hoping for, what I've been waiting for.

I'm sorry I care; that I care like this.