Saved by the Bad Boy

Chapter 6

I take a long shower, crying it all out. I'm lucky that when I get out, he's gone. I change quickly and lay on the floor, even though it's my night to sleep on the bed like it would make a difference. He's not going to forgive me just like that because I gave him the bed. I hug my pillow, trying to keep away the tears. I sniff and close my eyes, thinking that sleep will push away the pain. And luckily it does. But it always ends. I always wake up. For the next few days, I sleep. All I do is sleep, trying to push away the pain. But I can't sleep a lot, the pain becomes too much. The days start to blend together each one longer than the rest. I'm often either sleeping or in the shower. I try to keep my crying quiet in the shower but it's hard. And I realize that I've always been like this, depressed and lonely. For a long time, I've just never realized it until now. I sit against the wall, staring at the wall. I pretend to read but Einar isn't even here so I push the book away. Anne has tried to visit me many times but each time I told her I couldn't talk, she's stopped talking to me. Einar and I haven't spoken more than a sentence to each other. The door opens and I quickly pick up my book and pretend to read. He sets a plate of food in front of me and I push it away. 

"I'm not hungry," I reply coldly. He sighs.

"That's what you said at lunch, and breakfast and off and on for a few days." I shrug.

"I already ate."

"No, you didn't." I don't look at him, he's right. I haven't eaten very much, and I'm starting to show. And when he leaves me with a plate of food I throw it away. He's started watching me, trying to back me eat it. 

"Come on the wedding is tomorrow. You need to be able to fit in your dress." I turn away from him, just wanting to be alone, "fine be like that. Whatever, you know sometimes you're just such a pain. I don't know why anyone would ever want to marry. Don't expect me to be sad when you die of starvation." He says getting up and taking the plate. I to get up and go straight to the shower. 

"Wait, Caliga." But I shut the door, my lip quivering and tears burning my face. I don't know how long I stay in the bathroom but I just sit in there. Wanting to scream, but always trying to stay silent. When I'm done showering I open the door, once again he's gone. I open my mouth and let out the scream I've been hiding for so long and clench my fists. Ice explodes around me, coating the whole room in ice, hail frozen in mid-air. I'm on hands and knees, my hair covering my face. I cry, my tears turning into ice when it hits the floor. I curl on the ground, crying, and eventually falling asleep there. 

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I sit up to girls flooding into the room, I rub my head and realize that all the ice is gone. And I'm in the bed, Einar long gone, probably getting ready for the wedding. That's weird I never got into bed. The girls lay the wedding dress on my bed and pull me up.

"Come on we have to hurry." They all hurry around me combing my ratty hair, putting on makeup. Anne then comes into the room. She gives me a smile and I give her a "help me" look. She laughs.

"Come on, it's your wedding day, the girls are excited." A few squeal and others laugh. 

"Come on, change into the dress." I sigh and put the white dress over my head. They all ooh when it's on. I give a weak smile. It's low cut, with a thick silver strap on my shoulders and more silver lining the top and the fabric is pulled to my side with a silver sewing design pinning it there. The trail makes a large circle. I give a weak smile, it was very beautiful, fit for a beautiful, and happy bride that wasn't me. They fix my hair to make curls going down my shoulder with a little bit of glitter. I look in the mirror, wow, I looked, okay. The dress was a little big due to my not eating. But you could hardly notice. I sigh, okay, I can do this. I bite my lip, and Anne hugs me.

"You look beautiful." I give a small smile, "You'll be fine. He will love you after this." I gulp. I can only hope so. Maybe I'll be okay, maybe he'll get used to me. They usher me out of the room and through the hallways. Then, Anne stops where there's an empty spot in the wall. She feels the wall and her hand pushes a piece of the wall in. Then right before my eyes, a hidden door opens. I gap and they laugh. 

"I guess you were never told how to leave." I shake my head. We walk into a...closet? There are brooms and mops and janitor supplies. They lead me through the door. And through the hallways of a...labratory. Many people in white coats stop to stare.

"It's her...it's the girl with ice powers...she's the one marrying the leader's son...I heard she gave herself up...no she was kidnapped." My eyes flicker back and forth as people whisper to each other. I bite my lip and they lead me down a set of stairs before exiting the building. The sun hits me and I smile, realizing I haven't seen the sun in weeks.

"Come on, we don't have time." They push me. I look up at the building and on the top it reads, NASA. I laugh, well the government really likes their acronyms. They push me into a limo and they drive. The girls talk excited as we drive and I stare out the windows. I feel nervous, I have butterflies in my stomach. I sigh, realization hitting me. I'm getting married, and he hates me, I'm never going to be able to get married. I'm never going to see my family again. I'll be forced to stay cooped up in a room, having one baby after another while they train them, taking them away so they can become killing machines. I wish I could cry, but not now. Not when there are so many people. I stare out the window as buildings and trees fly by.

"Cali?" I turn and give her a small smile, "Are you okay?"

"Butterflies," I whisper and she smiles.

"Yea, I understand that." And I block out the girls talking and babbling. Soon the car stops and someone opens the door. I step out desperate for air. But immediately the air is again in short supply. I'm standing in front of the church. I take a deep breath and the doors open.