A broken boy// Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction

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Dani's POV

I lay on the bed with Matthew. His head is on my chest and his arms around me and I have mine around him, letting him try to calm down.

"Dani" He asked me after a few minutes.

"Yeah?" I asked him as I ran my fingers through his hair gently.

"Where are your parents?" He asked me.

"Well.. My dad is in jail." I tell him.

"And my mom left a long time ago.. Haven't met her" I tell him, trying not to go into detail about either subjects because. Well its not important.

"How long have you lived with your Aunt and Uncle?" He asked me.

"Since last december" I tell him.

"I must seem like pussy or some shit crying over this stupid shit. You don't even have your parents and you aren't crying." He said

"Matthew. I have before. But I try not to think about it.." I say.

"Why do you think so lowly of yourself?? For someone who is so flirty and f boy-y. You speak and think so lowly of yourself. I thought they were supposed to be all cocky and confident?" I asked him.

"I really like how you don't just curse after every other word" He says, not answering my question.

"Matt" I said and he sits up, looking down.

"I'm supposed to be a man. And be tough. And all this other shit and I'm not. I am not what everyone wants me to be. I'm not even what you want me to be. You probably want a boyfriend who is smart, sweet, and- and.. Perfect and manly and tough and strong and.. And I'm not. I'm just a stupid pussy who cries sometimes and tries to act tough.. and tries to be what you want me to be and I can't I don't know how.." He said wiping his face furiously.

"Why do you think that?" I asked him.

"Because Its true!" He exclaimed.

I scoot closer to him and wrap my arms around him again, my legs wrapping around his waist and I lay my head on his shoulder.

"Its not" I said.

I feel his arms wrap around me loosely.

"You aren't a.. You know.." I said, not wanting to say that word and he chuckles lightly.

"And you aren't stupid..." I tell him .

"Yes I am Dani. You of all people should know, you have had to help me for the last month and a half in Math.." He said sounding sincerely sad.

"Yeah you need a little more help to learn it, but that doesn't mean your dumb Matt." I said and I feel his head on my shoulder.

I think back to Matt and his dad arguing..

Maybe Matt thinks the things Matt's dad says about Matt is true.

"Matthew.. Do you think so lowly of yourself, Because its what your dad says about you?" I asked him and he stays quiet.