A broken boy// Matthew Espinosa Fanfiction

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Dani's POV
Next Day

I start my walk to school as normal, sadly not seeing Matthew.
I didn't get a text from him either.. which is also not normal.

I arrive at school and walk down the halls, headed to my locker.

Once I got my things out of my locker and close it, I look up to see a couple making out against Matthew's locker.

I furrow my eyebrows and see the guy pull away, revealing it to be Matthew.

I try to contain my tears. I try to make it seem like I was fine all day long. I tried to not scream and yell and cry and curse at myself for being so stupid.
It's Matthew Espinosa.

The fuckboy. The bad boy. The boy who fucks ever single girl at the school. The guy who doesn't catch the feelings.

I should have listened to Becca. Now it's like she won't even talk to me. All because I decided to be friends with him.

Matthew tried to talk to me in second but I just couldn't look at him. I knew I would start crying.

Right once the bell rang for school to be out, I rushed out with my things.

I get out the door and started walking quickly, wanting to get home quickly.

I hear my name being called repeatedly and footsteps approaching me.

Matthew.

I walk faster, tears streaming down my cheeks.
I feel hurt. And betrayed. And I know we are not a couple. But I definitely was falling for him. And I really thought that for once someone liked me. And that for once I could be with someone. And he would feel the same way I did towards him.

But. Like I said before.
He's Matthew Espinosa.

"Daniella" he said sternly, grabbing my hand and turning me around to face him.
His facial expression softens, seeing tears on my cheeks.

His hands come up and he starts trying to wipe my tears.

"Stop, stop. Matthew stop" I said pushing his hands away from me and turning around, trying to continue walking but he pulls me back.

"Are you crying because of me?" He asked me quietly, looking down.

"No Matthew. I'm crying because of my own, stupid self" I replied.

"You did exactly what I knew you would do eventually. It's my own fault for thinking you would do any different" I said sniffling.

He looks at me sadly.
"Dani I really-" I cut him off.

"Just save it Matthew" I said shaking my head and walking away from him.

I wanted him to come after me. I wanted him to pull me back and hug me and tell me he is sorry.

I wanted him too much though.
He probably does not understand. He probably doesn't even get why I'm upset.
But. Like I said. It's on me.

I finish my walk home and walk inside.
I go up to my room and shut the door. I push my backpack off and kick off my shoes before crawling into my bed.
I hear my phone ringing.
I close my eyes.

He isn't mine to cry over.
He isn't mine to cry over.
He isn't mine to cry over.
He doesn't like me. He just wants another girl to fuck. He doesn't care about me.

I hold my blankets to me close just wishing I could have stopped myself from falling into his trap.

I thought when he opened up to me that I meant something to him.

And when we kissed it was perfect and sweet and soft and slow and everything good.

When he said he liked me. And when he cried to me. Was that just a bunch of lies and him just trying to mess with me? 

Well maybe not the crying thing. But still.

I hear my bedroom door open.

"Go Away" I said to whoever it was. My aunt probably just got home or something.

"No" I hear a guys voice and I look and see it is Matthew.

"Yes." I said sniffling.

"Dani listen to me-" I cut him off.

"Why? Why the fuck do you think I would want to listen to what you have to say? You gonna lie to me some more?" I asked him and he looks at me shocked a little, probably due to the cursing.

"Dani I ju-" I interrupt again.

"Like yeah whatever. We are not together. We are not dating. Because you don't do that shit. But you don't get to just fuck with my feelings Matthew.. You don't. You are a fuck boy. Your obviously not getting sex from me so why the hell did you even come here?" I spat at him and I see so much hurt in his eyes.

"I'm sorry.. I'll go" He said in his sad voice, his head tilted down as he stared at the ground.

He turns around and walks out and I hear his footsteps go downstairs and then the front door slam.

I run over and look out the window and see him kicking at the ground of the sidewalk.

He walks forwards a few feet but stops and rubs his hands over his face before just keeping them there.

Don't go out there. Do not go out there and apologise. He hurt you first. 

My heart aches due to my thoughts.

I didn't want to hurt him.

So many people have let him down in his life. Even his siblings. All of them left him with his parents when they got the chance to.

 Now I am just one of the many people to let him down..

And hurt him more.

But he did hurt me.

He broke my heart. I know I shouldn't have fallen for him. Especially not in such short of a time. But I couldn't help myself.