I was sitting in my bed, netflix quietly playing in the background. I was wrapped in blankets crying my eyes out waiting for Jeff to arrive.
Rose was right. No one cares about me. Not Monty, Jeff probably won't care about me either.
"Hey baby girl."
"Hi Atkins."
"Scoot over." Jeff demanded crawling in bed beside me.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"Because I like you."
"She's right you know."
"Rose Williams is not right."
"Yes she is."
"No, princess listen to me." he said pulling me close.
"NO! Listen to me Jeff! She right, no one cares about me. Montgomery was my best friend and didn't even tel me he had feelings for the one girl who hates me the most. He didn't stand up for me when she embarrassed me. He didn't deny not caring about me. SHE'S RIGHT!! YOU HAVEN'T REALIZED MY PARENTS ARE NEVER HOME!! THEY FUCKING CARED ABOUT DRUGS, MONEY, AND SEX THAT THEY ABANDONED ME WHEN I WAS 12." I screamed back away from him.
"You don't get it, no one will ever care for me like I want them to. Like I need them to. Why are you here? I don't deserve you. I didn't deserve Montgomery. I didn't deserve parents. There is no way I deserve you." I slide down the way dropping my head in my hands.
"You're wrong. I care. Oh my God! Baby girl I care so fucking much. I hate to see you like this. She's a bitch, Rose Williams, no one will ever know why she is so hateful. But I will always be here for you. To me you are the world so delicate in my hands. I'm so scared to take my eyes off you because I'm scared that in the blink-of-an-eye your dissolve out of my fingers. I love you. The twelve years I've known you, I've grown to love you, cherish you, care for you! I'm not leaving your side." he said tears streaming down his face, grabbing me and pulling me into his lap, calmly rubbing my head.
We sat there crying in each other's arms. It wasn't long after when I felt Jeff lift us off the ground and onto my bed. He set me on my bed and crawled in under me. I lay my head on his chest listening to the steady beat of his heart. I rub small circles in his chest hearing a slight hum every now and then.
I wasn't sure exactly what time it was when I finally dosed off, but I woke up around 2 am. I looked up to see Jeff staring down on me.
"Babe." I asked
"Yes baby girl."
"Why haven't you gone to sleep?"
"I've been watching over you."
"You should get some rest."
"I promise, once you go back to sleep."
"I don't deserve you, Atkins."
"No, I don't deserve you Carsons."
I woke up the next morning to Jeff sleeping beside me peacefully. Flashbacks from the night come shooting at me, taking my breath away. I try my hardest not to think about it. I get up and get what I need to take a shower.
I hop into the shower washing my hair, body and face. Shaving any part of my body, where it is required. After about an hour in the shower I get out and get dressed. After completing my entire morning routine, I hang up my towel and head back into my room.
When I walk into my room I see Jeff sitting in my bed with iHop breakfast to go.
"Hey princess."
"Hey, when did you go get this?"
"I hope you don't mind, but I went and got us breakfast while you were in the shower."
"I don't mind, you do know you didn't have to though."
"I know. I just want you to have a good day, and the best way to start off the day right is with breakfast." he said with a smile plastered on his face. He digs in the bags grabbing all the food out.
"Umm, we can watch tv while we eat if you want." I suggested.
"Of course."
"I'll get the drinks. What do you want?"
"Water will be fine."
I walk downstairs and into the kitchen grabbing silverware, napkins, and any other essentials we need for breakfast. I don't forget to grab to bottles of water from the fridge. I walk back up to my room to find food spread all around my bed.
"I got the drinks. And anything else we may need." I said feeling embarrassed.
We were eating while watching friends on netflix. It was a peaceful silence that we both enjoyed. Every few minutes you'd hear a silent giggle linger in the air.
"So, I was thinking we could go on an adventure today?" he suggested tearing me out of my thoughts.
"Jeff..." I said.
"No Car..." I stopped him.
"I'm fine. I promise. You stayed with me the entire night, you can go hang out with your friends. You don't have to stay here with me." I said.
"Last night was a bad memory. My heart shattered into pieces watching you blame yourself, and cry yourself to sleep. That was a bad memory. I want today to be a good memory. Please Carsons." he stated taking control.
"Atkins so would love to but..." I was interrupted.
"No! I love spending time with you, I love hanging out with you. I love watching a smile creep onto your face when you see something that lights up the light in your heart. I love having you beside me because I know I will do everything in my power to keep you safe. I love being able to hang out with you knowing that there is no other place in the world I'd rather be than with you. I love being able to call you cute nicknames and watch the blush creep up under your cheeks. I love watching you do everything you enjoy and not care what people think about it. I love watching your free spirit dance in the wind while we are at the beach. I love caring about you." he said looking straight into my eyes.
I lift myself up into my knees and lean over to kiss him on his perfect lips. I would be lying if I said I didn't care about this boy, or if I said that everything he does has no effect on me.
"What are you waiting for. Do we have a date or not?" I asked biting my lip.
"If you keep biting your lip like that we might have to cancel that date." I giggled at him walking behind him, out the door and to his car.
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