I wrote a page for today but then erased it.
I just don't know if I can tell everyone what's happening. The full truth anyway.
I'm sorry to my friends for lying. I'm sorry to my family. I'm sorry to myself.
I'm not okay. I just wanna let everyone know that.
I told people I was going to try to be happier.
Well turns out I lied.
Unless you count sitting in the bathroom writing this while fucking tears run down your face as you sob.
I'm a disappointment.
I'm sorry to everyone for not being a better person.
He's everywhere. The man I once called my stepdad. The man I called father. I close my eyes and he's there. I wake up sobbing because of a nightmare. That's not the only reason I'm upset but that's all I really want to say.
Jazzy~
