As Long As You Love Me (A Connor Franta Fanfic)

He Finally Speaks

Connor's POV

I heard the door open as light foot steps walk towards me.

"Con... It's Ricky.. I need to to get up.. I know you can do this.. You're too strong not to be ok.. The doctor said you'd be fine but... I just.. I won't believe him until I see you walk out of here. " I heard a deep voice say and I could tell he was crying.

"Remember when I told you that I'd always be here for you? Well I need you to be here for me this time. I need you to be here for me by waking up Connor. I don't know what I would do if you.." he choked. He couldn't finish his words. He thought he was going to loose me.

"Please Con.. You don't know how much you mean to all of us... We all love you so much.. so much" he said as he broke down into sobs.

His words made me remember him automatically. How could I ever forget THE Ricky Dillon?

I wanted to scream," RICKY! IM HERE!!". But I couldn't. I hated hearing him cry over me... And it just tore me up inside.

"Con I'm gonna go.. The other guys and Sasha are waiting to see you too... Love you man." And with that he left.

Who's Sasha? I tried to remember her, but I was drawing a blank.

Just then another person walked in, slower this time.

"Connor.. It's me.. Sam. Con please wake up. I need you. You were always there for me when I needed you. Don't let this time be any different. Please... I-I just want you to know that I love you. I feel like I never tell you that. You're like a big brother to me.. I can't loose my big brother... Without you Connor... I honestly don't think I could make it.. You give the best advice.. When I'm sad you act like a complete idiot to make me smile.." he chuckled. "You do whatever it takes to help me. Not just me either. You do it for everyone else too. That's why we need you." he sighed.

Of course I remembered Sam! His words made me start to remember all of my close friends.

"I'm gonna leave before I start crying. You'd never let me live that down." he laughed.

"Love you man." he said as he walked out.

Moments later the door opened again. "Con! It's Jc man. You gotta get the hell outta here. You're too strong to go down like this..." he paused. " You know, I can't help but to feel like this is my all fault.. It was my dumb idea to go to that fucking party anyway. " he sighed.

I wanted to yell, "JC! WHAT THE FUCK! THIS ISN'T YOUR FAULT!" but of course I couldn't get it out.

"If we would've just went home and chilled there or went to a movie or something, you wouldn't be here right now.... But no, I had to suggest that we go to a damn party.." he cried. "God.. I'm so sorry Connor. If it weren't for me you'd be perfectly fine. Ugh!" he said hitting the wall.

Ugh! Why am I such a fucking idiot?! This is all my fault! This is all my fault. This is all my fault..." he just kept repeating those words as he hit his head on the wall and cried. Hard.

I can't take this! I have to let him know that it's not his fault! He's blaming himself for something that happened to me because of MY OWN stupidity! How could he possibly think this was his fault?! I have to tell him some kind of way.

"J.... C... Not... Your.. Fault.. I'm... Ok..." was all I could get out. My eyes slowly opened and I saw Jc spring up and stand by my bed.

"Con?! Con, are you ok!?" he said.

"Not... Your.. Fault..." I said, the words getting harder and harder to get out.

"Shhhh... It ok Connor. You don't have to strain yourself trying to talk." he said with tears in his eyes.

"Don't.... Cry.... Not... Your.... Fault." I whispered, becoming more tired with every word.

"Ok Con.. Just don't talk.. You're hurting yourself. Just relax." he said softly. "I'm going to go get a nurse and tell them that you're awake." he said turning his back me.

"J..... C" I said.

"Yeah?" he said turning around.

"I..... Love..... You.... Man..." I said slowly.

"I love you too, bro." he said as a tear slipped out of his eye. He walked out and I closed my eyes trying to rest.

A nurse came in and asked me to blink if I could. I did so. Then she asked me to speak.

"Too.. Tired.." I said. It took all I had to talk to Jc. I was exhausted, but it was worth it. I couldn't just let Jc think this was his fault.

"Ok.. I'll tell your visitors to give you time to rest, then they can come back to see you." she said before leaving. I fell asleep shortly after.

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A/N:

CON SPOKE!!!! 😱😱😱

I know this is kinda short but I actually worked really hard on it so please don't complain..

This chapter took a lot of thought but I like the way it turned out! 😊

Sorry for any mistakes!

But other than that

I LOVE ALL OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACES! Goodbye! 😘

~Ms. Marie💙