As Long As You Love Me (A Connor Franta Fanfic)

Why Can't You Be Mine?

When we got back up to the 5th floor, Kian told us that Connor had been moved due to the fact that there was no longer a need for him to be in the ICU. But he still had to be watched so they moved him down to the third floor. We all decided that we would go down in a little while to go see him. Then Kian said something that had us all smiling wildly.

"The nurse came out a few minutes ago and said Connor will be able to go home in about three or four days!" He smiled. "Really?! Yay!" I clapped happily. My Connor is gonna be fine!

"Oh! Here Kian, before I forget and it melts." Sam said before handing Kian his ice cream. "F-For me?.... You guys.... I love you guys so much!" He said, pretending to cry as he took the first spoonful in his mouth. We all erupted in laughter.

I walked over and sat down beside Kian, resting my head on his shoulder, suddenly feeling exhausted. Then I remembered something very important and snapped my head up to look at him.

Before I could even say anything, he smiled down at me, nodded and gave me a thumbs up. He went back to happily eating his ice cream as I got up to go get a drink out of the coke machine, mainly to hide the huge smile on my face.

Once I was over by the drink machine, I squealed a little as my coke fell out of the machine and onto the floor. Not out of surprise, oh no, right now I couldn't care less about the can of thirst quenching greatness that was now rolling towards my feet. I squealed because of how happy I was that things were going to be fine between Connor and I.

Before I could process the situation, Ricky came over to me and spun me around so that I was facing him. "Now tell me what happened earlier! You promised." He said. "I don't remember promising anything..." I teased, tapping my forefinger on my chin. "Sashaaaaa..." he whined.

"Alright, alright! I'll tell you." I laughed.

I knew Ricky's curiosity would get the best of him sooner or later, it just happened to be sooner. Of course he would have to know! I've always told him everything because I never felt the need not to do so. Besides, even if I didn't tell him now, he'd get it out of me eventually. He always had a way of doing that. Better go ahead and get it over with and tell the other guys right after, while I'm feeling brave.

"Well.... I have no idea how to explain this, so I'll just put it in the easiest way I know how... I've liked Connor for the longest of time... And yesterday, we kissed... But now.. Now he doesn't remember me.. And it hurts like hell.. But it's ok! Because Kian talked him and now I have time to think about all of this.... I feel so dumb for falling so hard so fast, but I honestly can't help it.. He's just so amazing to me.. And I just.. Well I don't really know, but one thing I do know is that I like him, a lot... I think I might even be in love with him, Ricky....." I sighed.

"What...." he said slowly. The curiosity in his eyes long gone, being replaced by sudden anger.

"What's wro-"

"You kissed him?!" He interrupted.

"Yes. Ricky why are you so a-" I tried again, but was stopped when he cursed under his breath.

He stomped towards the stairs, obviously too angry to be bothered by elevators, and flung the door open. I snapped out of my trance and quickly ran after him.

What the hell?!

Ricky's Pov

I ran down at least four flights of stairs, but at the rate I was going, it felt like one. I finally reached the door that led out side and stormed through it, quickly sprinting to the back of the hospital. I ran and ran and ran some more. I ran until my feet were beginning to feel numb. I found a narrow alleyway and walked into it.